30 August 2006

sandcastles

why is it that plans drawn up in the subconcious mind
sound so feasible and fantastic
but once you wake up
the massive drafts become worthless

i dont know what this world is becoming
and i dont want to know
everyone's getting on my nerves
and i hate the fact that there are so much politics going on
in all the things i hate
i must say that i really detest it when people turn hypocritical
and just cant stop bitching about friends they
oh love so much.

hml is a bitch, i cant say more.
she hates me and even if its my fault
hello, i think i have the right to plan my own time
fcuk off

im mood swinging, i dont care.
i wish exams would just go away

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Posted by tocks! at 23:42

29 August 2006

hungry hearts

Earth signs are: Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn.

Well-grounded, and realistic, your earth sign makes sure you stay in the real world.
When it comes to friendship, no-one is more rock steady than you.
A builder of long-lasting bonds, you are talented in business and good with money.
You find fulfillment in seeing tangible results for your efforts.

Capricorn (December 22 - January 20):
They plan carefully to fulfill their ambitions;
they are economical without meanness,
and able to achieve great results due to their organizing ability.
The ruling planet for Capricorn is Saturn;
the color of choice is Brown, and its star stone is the Black Onyx.

astronomy is fun, FUNNYBONE
you find the tao hua yun for me lahh
hahahas CHUBBY CHUBS!

and in the end, thats it.
i dont intend to take anymore shit
it wasn't that hard to make a decision

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Posted by tocks! at 12:13

28 August 2006

i dont wanna go to school tomorrow
and once again
im deeply touched by the efforts of my friends
who've spammed ohmycassie so much.
and the fact that its a common topic of discussion still amuses me.
thank you (:

i'm falling ill

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart

Posted by tocks! at 23:28

27 August 2006

mind games

Friendster Horoscope for August 27, 2006
Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19)

You don't have to let weighty issues get the better of you.
If there is a big decision on your plate,
you can handle it better right now if you take your emotions out of the equation.
It's true that your gut and your sixth sense have served you well in the past,
but today you need to turn away from taking a purely personal point of view.
Think about what will make things better for everyone, not just for you.
You will find more to celebrate when you think selflessly.

exactly what i needed to hear
perfect (:

Posted by tocks! at 17:06

dirty little secret

so all the cards have been laid out
and the truth all stated clearly
it was probably the most honest talk of my life
and despite the weirdness
it was surprisingly light-hearted (:
how can anyone feel happy and sad at the same time
-

xin : I don't want tuition today i don't want tuition today
i don't want tuition today i don't want tuition today i don't want tuition today.
i can't believe Arsenal lost to Manchester City >:[

-

i want to go watch jon leong sing again :D

Your soul is dark and troubled
Like a river running wild

Posted by tocks! at 11:52

26 August 2006

tumour in your humour

someone remind me how many more days to prelims
i should be studying
my toes are dyed red by my shoes
and durian is making me cough

at this moment, im a happy and fat girl
after tasting some of the good ol' singaporean cuisine
and feeling very satisfied (:

i saw a pretty brown and gold top today!
and the craving for retail therapy is starting up again
the irresistable desire to be irresistably desired

Saying love will stop the pain
Saying love will kill the fear

Posted by tocks! at 19:56

fingers crossed

Shame on you if you fooled me once
Shame on me if you fooled me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back

i <3 you elfiee
even if youre the most protective biatch ever.

Posted by tocks! at 01:23

25 August 2006

deppilf

im loved beyond words (:
thank you cassie DARLING
- note the sacarsm
you made me realise how loved i am
and how ive real friends who stick up for me
special mention to my flirtee-s aka dumb boys
ex queen bitch, the sister, and all those in class who know.
and the my home girls, all of them (:
acks, thats like everyone that i told la.
hahas!

if you wanna know, ask me.
hahas i prefer not to bitch on www

three hours worth of subway chatting
girls, we should do it again soon (:

NOTE TO I WANNA KNOW
hahahas i took it away
as of today, im giving up my recently found title of queen bitch again
i was just cranky :D

Why can't you shoulder the blame
Cos both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both

Posted by tocks! at 20:40

24 August 2006

supernatural nightlight

and everyone's becoming great bitches
from the stress of school and life
i feel sorry for being bitchy
but i dont really care, thus proving my point.

the morning was shit
the afternoon was shit
after a while, it got better
im just tired and wondering where the world went while i wasn't looking

sometimes i enjoy lonely bus rides
today was one of those days
lost completely in my thoughts, the view outside flew by

i think i like to feel important
to feel needed and wanted
like more important that anything else
is this a reflection of the lack of confidence?
and im that sort of person
who is so easily swayed that i cant stay in one place for long
or i'll just blend into the surroundings
i become just like everyone else.

The sweet words you whispered didn't mean a thing
I guess our song is over as we begin to sing

Posted by tocks! at 17:25

23 August 2006

voodoo magic

yay, singidol tomorrow!
i dont know what to wear
like the ex queen bitch said
i should just go get a gown for my tv debute

life's a prick
get on with it! :D

i've been ultra bitchy
and i honestly cant help it /:
its mean lahhh
i have something horrid to say about most people
and im sucha gossip monger ):
okay, i think KAYPOH should be in one of the seven deadly sins

given the scenario
that everyone changed except for a single friend
and because of the changes cracks start to appear
and drifting turns becomes common
who's the one shouldering the blame
the single friend for not changing
or everyone else for changing.
i dont know, just pondering about life and all of its exotic mysteries

flinger, finding (aka FOUND), funnybone, frisbee and flirter (:

I am a dreamer but when I wake
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take
And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be

Posted by tocks! at 20:58

22 August 2006

i bleed myself dry

its nice to know that we all share the same frequency SISTAAS.
hahahas!
okay we need one of those good group bitching sessions.
blind guys that entertain mindless girls :D

i cant study for FUG ):
too much work, too little time
and too little motivation

i shared a nice conversation with a friend today
and i feel that nobody should ever say
that the person they like deserve better
cos god's the judge, and no one else should have the right to judge.
and looks compatibility is a plus, not a must.
hahas that rhymed :D
we should always hold on to hope.

how can anyone possibly feel relieved
and annoyed at the same time
i cant quite comprehend this
denial leads to believing

You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger

Posted by tocks! at 23:26

surrender your heart

A minister passing through his church in the middle of the day,
decided to pause by the altar and see who had come to pray.
Just then the back door opened, a man came down the aisle.
The minister frowned as he saw the man hadn't shaved in a while.
His shirt was kind a shabby and his coat was worn and frayed,
the man knelt, he bowed his head,
Then rose and walked away.
In the days that followed, each noon time came this chap,
each time he knelt just for a moment, a lunch pail in his lap.
Well, the minister's suspicions grew, with robbery a main fear,
He decided to stop the man and ask him, "What are you doing here?"
The old man said, he worked down the road.
Lunch was half an hour.
Lunchtime was his prayer time,
For finding strength and power,
"I stay only moments, because the factory is so far away;
as I kneel here talking to the Lord,
This is kind a what I say:

"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO JESUS, THIS IS JIM CHECKING IN TODAY."

The minister feeling foolish, told Jim that was fine.
He told the man he was welcome
To come and pray just anytime.
Time to go, Jim smiled, said "Thanks."
He hurried to the door.
The minister knelt at the altar, he'd never done it before.
His cold heart melted, warmed with love, and met with Jesus there.
As the tears flowed, in his heart,
he repeated old Jim's prayer: "I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO JESUS, THIS IS ME CHECKING IN TODAY."

Past noon one day, the minister noticed that old Jim hadn't come.
As more days passed without Jim, he began to worry some.
At the factory, he asked about him, learning he was ill.
The hospital staff was worried, But he'd given them a thrill.
The week that Jim was with them, Brought changes in the ward.
His smiles, a joy contagious. Changed people, were his reward.
The head nurse couldn't understand why Jim was so glad,
when no flowers, calls or cards came, Not a visitor he had.
The minister stayed by his bed,
He voiced the nurse's concern: No friends came to show they cared.
He had nowhere to turn.
Looking surprised, old Jim spoke up and with a winsome smile;
"the nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,
that in here all the while everyday at noon
He's here, a dear friend of mine, you see,
He sits right down, takes my hand,
Leans over and says to me: "I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU JIM,
HOW HAPPY I HAVE BEEN, SINCE WE FOUND THIS FRIENDSHIP,
AND I TOOK AWAY YOUR SIN.
ALWAYS LOVE TO HEAR YOU PRAY,
I THINK ABOUT YOU EACH DAY,
AND SO JIM, THIS IS JESUS CHECKING IN TODAY."

Posted by tocks! at 23:14

20 August 2006

sea of stars

my sister is amused by the pink-blue-pink mouse
okay (:
i feel strangely happy today
its like YAY ITS A SUNDAY
and then uh-oh
which just reminds me of how much work i have dued
ahh dang!
DANG DANG DANG

i think leave in hair conditioner is the world's greatest invention
i sound like a airhead
but i really think so.
hahahas god bless the conditioner

and guess what!
i'm not dead yet, so maybe the booklet thing
is not really true
i'll keep waiting (:

i picked up a book last night on positive thinking
just delude yourself convince yourself
into believing that you're great
theres no way you're gonna hit the skies
if you jump thinking you'll fall
so believing is achieving.

Q : Why did the tomato blush?
A : He saw the salad dressing!
ahahhahas funnybone got tickled

okay i'll go watch csi (:

I'm just a singer, you're the world

Posted by tocks! at 11:59

19 August 2006

chosen child of golden sun

im getting sick of birthday celebrations
NO MORE PLEASE!
hahahas but thursday was fun ((:
happy belated birthday BING!
and so was friday! YAY!
happy birthday chuckles! :D
and i think on my birthday im gonna wear a mask
just so my face will look the same before and after the celebration (:

i got no feelings today!
but i retail therapy-ed a little
and i just cant wait for my order online to get through
RUSSELL HOW'S YER MA!
hahahahs wait and see.

today along orchard road
i was happily walking with my sister
whenn a man came up to me
stuffed a thin booklet into my hands
and said GOD BLESS YOU, STUDY HARD.
and the cover said after death, what?
i was so amused!
i flipped it open and the whole book was about not fearing death
i dont, not really.
"if you have any worries about death, i want you to know that
you can lay all your doubts and fears to rest..."
HAHAHA, i think god just sent me a sign.
im gonna die ):
okay if i die before As,
my only regret is not being able to tear up my books and notes
and i dont want to die before i turn eighteen
hopefully that'll buy me another 4 months!
and if i do die, oh welll. i love everybody (:

plus i just spent like FUGGING damn a lot of hours
writing my own testimonial for school
and in the words of wise men : self praise is no praise.

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger

Posted by tocks! at 21:33

17 August 2006

crestfallen

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

ive heard the songs so many times
but never really registered the words
its so sad ):

today as i walked the lonely road home
i felt afraid
and im on the second day of trying to accomplish it unintentionally
and still counting
cos truth is, i just cant do anymore.

Posted by tocks! at 22:13

16 August 2006

a dozen roses

i talk too much!
okay not really
but now even ALY says that
i should study in a small room alone!
ALONE ALONE ALONE! ):
which is actually the truth that i refuse to admit
cos i walk too much
and talk too much
distraction is self inflicted

and i feel beyond stupid
a little discouraged
i hate it when i fail at a task that i put in effort for
it makes me feel small and useless ):
it really feels like ive let myself down
plus everyone else who tried to help
which is most everybody else who has any brains at all
and disappointing others is one thing that i greatly fear
but i'll put in more
i feel like im almost there
i succeeded once a couple of years back
i dont see how repeating it is gonna be that hard.
thank you SHUIE
you're the sweetest (:

we had a spelling practice today!!
PORTAY PESEVERANCE
the tamil tigers beat the cheena cheetahs hands down!
and i gave the cheena cheetahs it's name :D

It'll make you hear a symphony
And you'll just want the world to see
But like a drunk that makes you blind
It'll fool you every time

Posted by tocks! at 20:54

14 August 2006

that's why you go away

Here is the deal:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
And there you have it.

01 How does the world see me?
stand - jewel

02 Will I have a happy life?
california - phantom planet

03 What do my friends really think of me?
undiscovered - ashlee simpson

04 Do people secretly lust after me?
can't fight the moonlight - leann rimes

05 How can you be happy?
she believes - ronan keating

06 What should I do with my life?
will you remember me - corrine may

07 Why must life be so full of pain?
don't cry joni

08 Will I ever have children?
dreams - diana degarmo

09 Will I die happy?
eternity - robbie williams

10 What is some good advice for me?
promise me - eden's crush

11 What is happiness?
it's raining men - geri halliwell (HAHAHA!)

12 What's my favourite fetish?
there she goes - six pence none the richer

13 How will I be remembered?
yellow - coldplay ( I AM NOT SHUHUI! )

14 What is your love life like?
drift away - dobie gray

15 What's your life motto?
broadway - goo goo dolls

16 What do your parents think of you?
change the world - eric clapton

17 What's your favourite hobby?
unchained melody - air supply

18 What does your best friend really think of you?
at the beginning - richard marx

19 What's the worst thing about you?
take the place of your man - jordon knight

20 Describe your mind.
fool again - westlife ( HEY I'M NOT STUPID! )

21 How will you die?
beautiful soul - jesse mcartney

22 How does your crush feel about you?
smile - lonestar

23 What is your wedding going to be like?
mr beasley - corrine may

24 What about your honeymoon?
sad eyes - enrique iglesias

25 Describe the last day of your life.
what makes a man - westlife

26 Why does life suck?
part time lover - stevie wonder

27 Why does life rule?
this one's for the girls - martina mcbride ( I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS A FEMINIST! )

28 What will you be famous for?
shine - clay aiken

29 What's the craziest thing you'll ever do?
tears of pearl - savage garden

30 Will you achieve your goals?
pure shores - all saints

31 What will your future job be like?
unbreak my heart - toni braxton

32 Your party life?
only love - trademark

33 Overall, will you be happy?
i'm with you - avril lavigne

34 Or will you just deal with it?
leader of the band - dan fogelberg

edit//
mark's

20 Describe your mind
words dont come easy

26 Why does life suck?
BECAUSE OF YOU!!!

29 What's the craziest thign you'll ever do?
summer loving

30 Will you achieve your goals?
only love

Posted by tocks! at 21:52

fire burning in her eyes

you know the feeling you get
when you've craved for the dish for so long
that suddenly you just lose the appetite for it.

ive got a weird itchy rash ):
its at a weird location.
YAY MOCKS ARE OVER!
it feels like im walking with a lighter load today
but then darkness continues to loom around the corner
when i found out prelims are three weeks away ):
sighh, when do i get a break
a well-deserved one i must say.

and people have been questioning
what i'll be doing after i'm done with the As.
i suppose, i dont know
i'll pick up a craft i think
i want to make things for myself (:
and then i'll go find a job that will give me extra ka-ching!
plus i'll go learn to bake and make deserts!
i want to make chocolately food :D
plus inject a lot of retail therapy trips in between it all
and spend quality time just doing nothing.
okay, yay!
" so we spent the whole night talking 'bout the rest of our lives "

Your faith like the pain
Draws me in again
She washes all my wounds for me
The darkness in my veins
I never could explain

Posted by tocks! at 21:23

13 August 2006

message in a bottle

You and I in a little toy shop
Buy a bag of balloons
With the money we've got
Set them free at the break of dawn
'Til one by one, they were gone

i keep sleeping and dreaming
i need peace ):
i want to be a balloon and float away

If I could find a souvenier
Just to prove the world was here
And here is a red balloon
I think of you and let it go

Posted by tocks! at 19:18

11 August 2006

scorned

i keep thinking that something bad's gonna happen
ive been whining for the better part of the night
procrastinating
whining and just dwelling in my own sorrow
i cant get down to work ):
WHY ISNT THERE PEOPLE ONLINE
TO REMOVE ME FROM THIS MISERY
IM SO STRESSED THAT IM ANGRY!

and VAN just so you'll know
i'd rather it be you than anybody else

people are only jealous when they think someone
has something they ought to have
-quote from van, from her lit book.

i feel like an abnormally fat hippo at this point of time
and im just going to sleep.
good night world, welcome to dreamland.

If a greater wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
could you make it on your own

Posted by tocks! at 23:17

i see the light die in your eyes

maths was a disaster
okay not DISASTER like tsunami
but more of a slight earthquake
like 1 on the richter scale or something
i was trying so hard to drown myself in the music this morning
feeling like all hope was gone before the paper
but i suppose it wasnt that bad (:

and special thanks
- see at least im grateful!!
to the boys for answering my never ending maths questions
and putting up with stupid WHY EIGHTS?!
plus everything else (:
seee, since you all are such WONDERFUL teachers
i suppose i'll have all the help i need to get that B in As right! :D

and now im just trying to convince myself
by all means - trickery, sweet talking and chats with my conscience
to get back to the books so that i can start and complete econs by tonight
and then move on to geography tomorrow.

oh and happy 21st birthday BROTHER!
not like he'll ever see this
but it's the thought that counts right! (:

You turn to me, I see your eyes
and somehow they cease to shine
You smile at me yet I can see
you don't think we can make it

Posted by tocks! at 20:29

10 August 2006

candleburn

i made a complete fool of myself
but hahh, its good to laugh at yourself!
Every laugh, laugh line on your face
Made you who you are today
morse code!

and even though i couldnt eat a single fry
and didnt drink a single sip of coke
it was a fun studying session (:

im completely hopeless at maths
did anyone know that anyway /:

on Vineland past the candle shrine
that burns on every night for someone
she lets herself go
like an angel in the snow she lays down on her back

Posted by tocks! at 20:43

09 August 2006

reserved for later days

this cracked me up a little
im really tempted to do that on friday /:
as of today, 09august2006
i declare my hatred for maths
and everything else that's related
particularly trigonometry.

i got lost in some sort of airy fairy mood the entire day
the kind when you just stare blankly into space
and completely lost between the lines of song blasting in your ears
that is how i wasted my national day
and i can hear fireworks or shooting or something from my house
wth, the stadium is 9485063958 kms away?!

okay, back to battling the maths monster
if i die tonight, just know that i put up a brave fight.

You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free

Posted by tocks! at 20:10

08 August 2006

duck and dog

the long long 7km walk was completely out of point
and a waste of energy
but i liked the tunnel part
where we keep shouting so it would echo (:
kids. oh welll

and! i must say that im very impressed by zm's maturity ((:
very, very impressed
and it's really wise!
you dont marry the person who you love the most,
you marry the person who you can live with best

i met two people today
completely unexpected but very worthwhile
i didnt listen to charlene two years ago
and all i could say was that she was too obsessed about studying
but this time
i'm going to listen to her.
"its august already and you're still playing?!"
gahhh /:
and its also nice to know that in this dynamic society
some people stay the same
andd i met DAMNITPIECEOFSHIT! too
okay lah, not shit.
but anyway! i hope grabbing onto jon's arm for my dear life worked.
it's a matter of pride
and nobody can actually understand
why it is that i find it so important
to get that portion of pride back
but my sister laughed.
i suppose shes the only one who can come closest to understanding

afterthoughts of click
1. we fast forward too much in life
its not about having a remote control or not
but in actual fact by pretending not to see what we dont want to
and just pushing work away
is in some form fastfowarding already

2. it's not about the pot of cornflakes at the end of the rainbow
but rather the journey towards the cornflakes
that should actually be treasure
working towards a goal is correct
but we should never forget the little details that bring us there

3. treasure all that you can treasure
cos before you know it
you may lose all of it.

and i need to proudly say that
im the world's greatest piece of shit
cute shit though ((:
to learn and complete summation all by myself
ALL BY MYSELF mind you.
i'm inspired to do more maths

But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Posted by tocks! at 14:28

07 August 2006

will you love me in the morning

i cant sign in to msn /:
why is it that when i need it the most
it fails on me
oh well

today was an emotionally and mentally overwhelming day
to some extent i suppose
watching click made me go up and down the entire rollercoaster already
then there were bouts of highness that were caused by overdose on untouched medication
and then thoughtful then teary moments while watching the movie
receieved more than one strange message in a day
and there are just too many thoughts to handle at just this moment
and not sure who to call cos i dont want to do any form of explaining
its just simply too much for a brain to deal with

and i always managed to get caught when im most vulnerable
i swear that god's pulling a prank on me
why cant i have a clear clear indication of which way im supposed to go
its funny how when the moment i thought i saw a direction
then i get caught offguard and end up turning round all over again
i think the best part is that nobody knows
even though you may think you do
but i can certainly say that no one knows just what it is
and its mildy comforting to know that there're still secrets i can keep within

but click was definitely worth a watch! :D

Posted by tocks! at 20:43

06 August 2006

monogamy

im very unsettled by the growing distances
much as most of it is unintentional
but im the kind of person who latches on tightly
to all the good things and keep them close
but when they start to break apart
i just dont know how to move on and let go
and in the daily rush of school timetable
plus all the different priorities
we just all move slowly apart
and one day when you pause and just look back
you'll come to realise what you've always thought of as close by
like the drifting wood you clung on to in the crashing ocean
has actually floated away, further than you ever imagined.

im disoriented by friendships that fade
and things that become unimportant
after being so significant for so long

pms may be thought of as exaggerated
but it may not always be overrated
(HEHH IT RHYMES!)
cos just like alcohol, it just magnifies problems and feelings that has always been around
and at such reality checks you cant help but lose yourself in it.

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure

Posted by tocks! at 21:26

affirmation

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

i choose to believe that listening to thought provoking songs
is going to help me to do well for gp mocks tomorrow.
hahahas, live prettily in the world of self delusion.

we count only blue cars

Posted by tocks! at 18:17

05 August 2006

faux

now friday is gone saturday is almost gone
and tomorrow speeds by
so we've lived for yet another week
the rate at which i'm moving through my days
i can only say one thing - i'm speeding way over the limit
i really need to buy some form of footwear
they're all dying on me /:

happy birthday kimmiebeans!
i'm so sad that i wasn't around for your cake! ):

i wonder if saying another repeated reply
would have ever made a difference
and i constantly try to believe that im only around
because there's no where else to be.

i had a dream that night
that someone threw a party
and everyone of my friends was invited and ALL there
except for me ):
like all my friends school and old school and everywhere else ):
and then i dreamt i was part of harry world
desperately trying to decode some mystery puzzle
where piano leads and kissing ends with a kiss
wahh lao
wth thinks of such riddles in their dreams! /:
i have a feeling it came from somewhere.

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you
But when we are apart, I feel it too
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain
with or without you

Posted by tocks! at 19:51

03 August 2006

saying goodbye

university talks just left me more baffled and confused
my doubts and my interests are colliding
and now on top of being unemployed
im not gonna find a school i actually wanna go to
i have a sudden strange urge to be in a school
where i dont know anybody else at all
ahahhas, how strange
considering that i am deadly afraid of being alone

and the reality has finally sunken in
that we're actually eighteen and soon going our seperate ways
its scary how you grow up so quickly
when it feels mentally i've not grown up a single bit
and that its still the 16 year old girl talking.
gahh, my sister looked at me
and told me that im immature and still 16.
secretly, maybe i am
which is not entirely a bad thing actually (:

my computer died
and i feel like im dying
maybe when i can finally breathe through two nostrils again
my computer will recover /:
i dont feel like going to school tomorrow.

i'm such a boyband girl (:
westlife!

why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame we're worlds apart

Posted by tocks! at 22:59

02 August 2006

eyechocolate

quote of the day : boys will be boys
its amazing to see how they act like they're eight
when they're eighteen
and how they're gonna continue acting like that when they're eighty!
hehhh

and the best part about one and a half years of religion class
boiled down to one simple sentence
god always answers in the deeps
never in the shallows of our soul.

my throat hurts
and i dont really feel like talking
strangely, i dont really feel like typing too.

Posted by tocks! at 19:57

01 August 2006

pieces of me

When darkness is upon your door
and you feel like you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I won't let you fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

nobody else thinks humpty is cute (:
yay, i have him ALL TO MYSELF!
and now an extra bit of info about humpty.

Posted by tocks! at 22:02