25 February 2006

teetwelve
i love you guys a lot
i was just looking through some photos
and random tag board messages
then i realised that im really lucky
cos ive got all of you.
and its more than i can ever wish for really
youre so sweet like cottoncandy clouds
how can there be chocolate coated rainbows
then it wont be a rainbow anymore
it can only be candycoated chocolate coated rainbow
ahhahs
you girls. plus three guys
make my world go round (:
and common testing together
is just going to make us stronger (:

Posted by tocks! at 21:42

all i do now is listen to sad songs
trying to bury my grief and stress in them
maybe things will be better
but my instincts tell me otherwise
nonchalant
i miss those times when it used to be you
days of mindless chatter
i wished people werent so superficial
random days of fun

Pretend like there's no world outside
And we could pretend that all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
There ain't no need to go outside

Posted by tocks! at 21:02

23 February 2006

painted masks
i need someone to break this mask on me
and just free me from this tangled mess
i feel like im just on the verge of breaking down
everythings going wrong
i can keep smiling
but for how long
school is taking everything from me
and when school drains you
everyone becomes evil
and in us seeds of the devil is sown
and when everyones a bitch to everyone else
friendships start to collapse too
just thought of something
retarded, but nonetheless true
no one's a virgin cos life's screwed us all
0h well.
if only life was a video tape
then maybe i can just pause things
forward it abit and then play again

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you

Posted by tocks! at 23:45

15 February 2006

OMGG!
it suddenly hit me that erm
CTs are a week plus away
and when zhanng told me that
it included everything we've ever learnt for econs
i almost fainted.
goshh /:
its a mugging spree from now on
i will try
please motivate me everyone (:

right guys, wrong girls
life is gay

And it's all in how you mix the two
And it starts just where the light exists
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole,through everyone that feels it

Posted by tocks! at 22:44

14 February 2006

happy valentines day (:
i was amazed by the spectrum of reds and yellows
all on my table by the time i got to class
and 17 tables of such colours!
it brings back past memories of vday ((:
i feel so lovedd :D
teetwelve makes me happy
with roses, marsbarman, selfpotraits
and gorgeous packages ((:
and so so many presents!
plus all the other gifts lahh

and i had a hot date with my econs tutor
who happens to be an old woman
ahahs im like some opposite of paedophile lesbian
wahahahs ((:

Posted by tocks! at 23:03

13 February 2006

be my valentine

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

Posted by tocks! at 22:48

12 February 2006

i guessed so
im not sad
but im not happy either
nothing more to say

There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing,
but I can try for your heart
Our dreams,
and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving

Posted by tocks! at 20:26

sometimes life gets too hard to bear
and i wished everyday was like saturday
just have some brainless fun
school is dragging me down
no matter what everyone else says
like to just chill
but i cant get my mind off it

dont try to neaten up your eyebrows
when you arent in a very happy mood
trust me
i tried, and i failed
ive got a ugly left eyebrow now
please do not stare /:
and the two sides are rather unbalanced

i keep clicking on the link
its like my subconscious telling me what to do

You're An Ocean, You're An Ocean
Settle Down, Settle Down,
What's the commotion,
I'm an island, but you're an ocean,
It's a stormy sea of love and emotion,
You've got me suspended motionless in time

Posted by tocks! at 11:05

08 February 2006

true friendships make it through the test of time
but before theres a test of time
i think that theres a point in every friendship
that requires us to go through before
anyone can become true friends.

i find that theres always this point in the friendship
when things turn sour
initially, most new friends always seem pretty cool
however when it starts to grow and develop
theres always this part
where the flaws that lie in even the most perfect person
start to get annoying
and gets on your nerves
that somethings they do
you just cant stand it
and this is that first test of friendship
if you can get through it that period of time
and learn to live with the imprefections of a friend
chances are you will end up having another great friend

i was just thinking of all my stronger friendships
and im beginning to see a trend!
ahahhas, just like a georg student should ((:

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart,
they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way,
into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Posted by tocks! at 21:38

05 February 2006

happy belated bday feli ((:
-croaks a song
hahaas
i hope you had lots and lots of fun today!
like, LOADS. :D
and you didnt get cake in your face okay
hrmpfff
no fun /:
but we had plenty of fun
drinking ermmm.
coke + yakult + ribeana right!
ahahs ELF dont puke!! ):
and finally success in my plans (:

CHINGAY; parade of dreams
was the coolest experience
and even though friday night was crap
since i went home like ill
but saturday night rocked the house
chin-gayyy
chin-gayyy
i got vip stickers!!!
YAY :D
and im totally in love with two little boys
ruben and james
who were sitting next to me
and they're like 9 and 5
but so so adorable ((:
HUGS -
i want to see them again

everyone is laughing at my croaking )):
i sound like a ermm
zao sia frogggie ):
i'm going to go vday present shopping tomorrow
WHO WANTS TO COME WITH ME! :D

and hello you
im sorry i couldnt change things in anyway
and that things didnt end the way you hoped it would
and despite everything
i still feel responsible somehow
i just want everyone to be happy
and that's not really possible.
it's really more complicated then it seems

Loving you isn’t really something I should do
Shouldn’t wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you’re the right kind of wrong

Posted by tocks! at 21:24

01 February 2006

dont read if youre not up for anything depressing
or if you are not up for the insecure side of me
its just somethings i need to do
more than just type and then lock away
i just feel like letting others read it
for once.
i dont know i just want to

everything feels wrong
i dont know what is
its just. everything
this is just a moment when everything is going wrong

im so tired of being stupid
people expect me to excel
their hopes placed upon my shoulders
and i really dont know what i can do
but just try to live up to their expectations
i dont work well under stress
i hate having no choice but to put in my best
im tired of working
i really am
sometimes i really wish to just jump out of all this
and drown somewhere without work
i dont know whats going on for maths
nor econs nor georg
im not lying when i say i really dont know
its just that ive lost the drive to study
somehow im like only physically there during lessons

i feel so alone sometimes
even though im surrounded by friends
its like no one understands
or no one can reach in deep enough
its all superficial words
plastic smiles
so what if you know the whole world
when you dont even know the world of any one person
if i could turn back time
i would spend my precious moments with those who matter
even if its one or two people
you know they'll stick with you till the end

and as febuary 14 draws near
thanks again for reminding me that
once again im left on the shelf
maybe it doesnt really matter
on other days its cool to be swinging single
and to be free to do whatever you like
but who can truly say that they want to be alone that night
in the mess of all those chocolates and roses
you are alone.

and no one knows the truth
they dont know the pain
and to know that you dont care makes it worse
ive stopped hoping