31 July 2006
kryptonite
it doesn't do to dwell on dreams and forget to live-albus dumbledore
constant reminder to move away from the dreamscape
just once in a while, to check out what's going on.
hahh, and in time too
i just found out this morning
that mocks are next week!
how very exciting ;
note the sacarsm.
i have a strange but intense urge to read harry now
but NO, i will not give myself a reason to get distracted
its so easy to get lost in the pages of a book
to let yourself melt into each scene
witnessing everything through the character's eyes
its been a while since ive read /:
soccer in the rain with the class
therapeutic as always
and chorusing to you're my sunshine
it never fails to put a smile on all our faces really
the power of music, let the music heal your soul.
i dislike inflexibility and living by the book in a character
i prefer it when people are adaptable to changes and moods
offering a wide spectrum of personalities
the beauty of the rainbow thus also lies in the fact that
its made up of seven colours, monotone is dull.
happy belated birthday bangsat!
bestfriend + part-time lover + dog all rolled into one BIG package (:
happy birthday harry, the-boy-who-lived
it's been awhile, how have you been
and happy birthday to his creator, jkrowling
who magiked the world that i would gladly live in
Summer's ended and without a trace
Time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thought I walked on through
With my heart in one
Posted by tocks! at 17:32
29 July 2006
tell me your favourite song
it somewhat feels likesomebody cut me open
and emptied my organs on the ground
its the strange hollow feeling
that i cant quite place
and i cant really identify the problem too
maybe its just the headache
it seems that the balance is a little upsetted
there are just plenty of little wrong things
and everything else is just bland
if you know me well enough
you will come to realise that of the many things i detest
having a stagnant and monotonous feeling is one of them
and whenever days turn out that way
i cant help feeling #%$&^
Alfie: What have I got? Really? Some money in my pocket,
some nice threads, fancy car at my disposal, and I'm single.
Yeah... unattached, free as a bird...
I don't depend on nobody and nobody depends on me.
My life's my own. But I don't have peace of mind.
And if you don't have that, you've got nothing.
So... what's the answer? That's what I keep asking myself.
What's it all about? You know what I mean?
much as the show is technically casting bad morals
and teaching wrong ideas to the audience
with its idea of cheating, one night stands and flings
it was mildly thought stimulating
if you live too boldly and carefreely
maybe one day, you'll find that you have nothing
cos everybody else has found their own solace
casting you off, leaving you on the route.
Posted by tocks! at 23:58
28 July 2006
reality check #1001
these couple of daysive come to realise once again
the truth about life - that this pretty world that we live in
is not as pretty as its painted out to be
lesson #1
friendships can't get you a job
okay, yes its probably a controversial issue
and one can argue that if you've the right connections
know the right people blah blah blah
you can get a job with the snap of a finger
however, we all realise that in most cases
see, we're generalising again.
it is not the truth
it is a meritocratic world to a certain extent
most of the time, if youve got the brains
and you put in just enough effort you get the job
so in a way, its not very just is it
cos if you know just what to do
you can get as far as you want to go
and due to the realness of the issue - that friends are not the only important thing in life
that feeding yourself and your family is more important
that financial stability is the key
so relationships start to fade away into shadow
and the best friend who held your hand
just in the blink of an eye became your next competitor
and much as we cling onto the relationships
most of the time unwilling to face the harsh truth
it is true, that you gotta let all go and be alone
and no matter how great a friend you may be
or how popular you are
its not going to get you anywhere unless you get the qualifications
so in short
relationships are only a bonus, a plus
and without the basics, nothing else would matter
just like the cca issue - that ccas are no longer compulsory
BUT if you get a relatively decent grade
having a fantastic cca record will just give you the upperhand
so thats about it.
all the relationships we've worked so hard to built
through all these years of our lives
boils down to being plus points
that are pretty optional
lesson #2
equality is far beyond the horizon
that much as we constantly fight for male-female equality
its never going to be achieved in real life
its something that is so deeply innate
right from the point that
god made MAN, not WOMAN
that it cant possibly be erased
it was slightly upsetting to once again come to terms with the fact
that up till modern society
with all the modern men and women
who are openminded and free
we still are unable to achieve somewhat sexual equality
im not asking for having equal pays, equal jobs
im just hoping to see that one day
man will see females as their equal
not necessarily in monetary value or terms
but rather in the emotional and human rights way.
that we generally may not be as strong or logical
or not as able to plot out complex strategies
but in many other ways, women have abilities than men lack
abilities that are often understated and forgotten
due to the "naturalness" of it all
which makes them just as equal as an overall being
the only hope, is that in a world where there is no longer a need
for the superpower strengths to hunt for food
we can someday acheive some sort of equality
because with the aid of technology, women can do as well as men.
lesson #3
life is not a poster on the wall
no matter how every motivational poster
comes along with pretty pictures
and inspiring words
fairytales are stories spun around idealistic thoughts
to keep the children believing that there is always hope
and to delay the pain when a child comes to realise the truth about life
that disney was just an evil plot in life
to let us all sink into pits of delusion
and when youre painfully yanked out of the pool
thats when you learn to face the stinging cold wind
its good to have hope
and to believe that if you have faith anything is possible
its optimtistic and keeps us all going strong
when the world just crumbles
but one day we all forgot to mention conveninetly
is that much as miracles do happen
they are really miracles
cos they really dont happen often
alrighht
done with depressing nonsense
the older you get the more shit you understand
no wonder your hair starts to gray
thats why being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up
but dont worry, im still holding on to the tiny threads of hope (:
Posted by tocks! at 23:26
love on the line
how often do we let our minds judgeinstead of allowing our hearts to feel
just some brain food
i like to think
so much that i should apply for permanent citizenship in lala land
i hope masquerade gets chosen for theme! :D
i want a masquerade ball
You Are My Sunshine
You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
The other night dear as I lay dreaming
I dreamt that you were by my side
Came disillusion when I awoke dear
You were gone and then I cried
You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
You told me once dear there'd be no other
That no one else could come between
But now you've left me to love another
You have broken all my dreams
You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
did anyone ever realise the other parts of the song is sad?
i never knew until NOW.
hahahas, oh well
it should our class anthem (:
I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things i really want
You had me too afraid to ask
And as i look ahead of me
Cry and pray for sanity
Posted by tocks! at 21:32
27 July 2006
summer came like cinnamon
and hearing is worse that seeingbecause when you see
you can only see the truth
but when you hear without seeing
youre imagination brings you to the wildest places
i know its trivial
but i feel that its really pretty fcuked up to
be constantly cutting someone elses' queue every single day
im not saying that im completely guilt free
but the fact is that when you do it on a daily basis
and simply making yourself look incapable of queueing like a normal person
and being selfish enough to cut the
long enough noodle king queue and buy like bowlS of food
without sparing a thought for the other people
its pretty selfish
and strutting around the school
acting like they're the biggest fcuks ever
seriously, its possibly one of the most major things i hate about the school.
they say dont judge a book by its cover
but you look like a bastard and act like one too.
gahhh, yes i know ive complained to like FIVE people
but its really something i cant stand.
the studying partner SNORES while napping
and says that im sucha terrible person
due to my intense love for matchmaking people
but seriously
i would love it if all my friends fell for each other
how cute is that! :D
Just more than I could take
pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake
I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise
that you don't even have to try any longer
Do what you want to
Posted by tocks! at 19:29
26 July 2006
jelly world
i missed both my buses today!RWAARRR
but god blessed me with quick buses (:
so i still got home in a relatively short time
omg, and i just realised
IM SORRY ALYCIA I FORGOT!
happy belated belated birthday alycia
okay, too many birthdays
till i forgot to wish you on the www (:
first day of feeling productive
stayed back in school
and attempted some work
and stressed the class by showing them my notes!
hurrhurr
and fell asleep while reading maths
but then i got some bits done!
and then, one of the first maths tutorial that i could actually comprehend
ever since mids ended (:
and nobody else appreciates my pirates music!! ):
i wish i would quit having mere mortalish thoughts
and stop having such active imaginations during classes
i think i live in an imaginative world
that only goes as far as my thoughts would limit me = no limits!
it's just that some thoughts keep bugging you inside
and wont go away
i lovee numbersix who really really understands (:
i saw humpty dumpty UP CLOSE today!!
OMG he was like one meter away
and even though im sitting down and he was standing up
massive height ehh /:
BUT SO CUTEEE
hahahas, checking humpty dumpty out
has become a daily highlight of schooling
and dont ask who he is
cos i dont know his name
having an eyecandy ALL TO MYSELF again is schweeet (:
You can kiss me in the moonlight
On the rooftop under the sky
You can kiss me with the windows open
While the rain comes pouring inside
Kiss me in sweet slow motion
Let's let every thing slide
You got me floating, you got me flying
Posted by tocks! at 20:16
25 July 2006
sapphire and faded jeans
happy belated bday van (:mr tee says that most humans
seek for distraction at moments when we should never get distracted
and reminded us to stop sudoku-ing and playing neopets
to stop organising class bbqs and chalets
and to quit thinking of where to eat
hahahas and shuie said
35 more days to prelims
thats pretty near
im not feeling the tension yet
but i think its time to start
NOT AGAIN
i honestly cant wait for everything to be over
and when cj would just be a bittersweet memory
but then again
i dont want all this to end
maybe im just looking in all the wrong places
my mini has a knack for saddening me ):
theres a tiny dead beetle-ish insect on the table
its cute
it moves with the wind
it has eyes
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then its time you spoke up too
Posted by tocks! at 16:17
24 July 2006
take a chance
i was snappy todayi almost snapped
then realised that it wasnt fair for me to do so
there were various complaints that i sang
the entire day today
it helps to keep me sane
at van's suprise dinner
the guys just sat there
talking while the girls
seeing how nothing was being done
took the initiative and started the cooking
the preparing of food
and basically organising
another sign of sexism present in our society
no real intention of it being that way
but its been so deeply etched that its almost an instinct
much as its always nice to walk on the well trodded path
but change is always refreshing
too much work but no drive to start
im trying to relax with all the hillsongs
"ehh that song by faith hill laaa"
i just realised psyduck and kacheek are friends!
hahahas :D
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Posted by tocks! at 21:45
23 July 2006
city slicker
the retreat turned out pretty pleasingboring but still the company was good
could have been better but
we gotta be contented with what we've got!
and generally retreat-ish (:
it kinda reminded me that i should remember to be myself more often
cleared some thoughts
plus found some focuses (:
"gibbs, we've got a heading"
and get reminded that each one of us are precious
and you may touch lives without ever knowing it!
it was the small conversations and talks
that kinda struck me
like how we tend to be obsessed with small details
and forget to see the large picture
like how we forget to be grateful for being able to
wake up each morning to see blue sky
to be still breathing
and to catch glimpses of good friends in the corridors
between classes
that sort of little things
which make up a big good thing
big earthshaking miracles hardly happen
but the small miracles get us going right!
and i just caught hitch! :D
refreshing to watch it again
i think its funnayee (:
Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink.
But if you must lie,
lie in the arms of the one you love.
If you must steal,
steal away from bad company.
If you must cheat, cheat death.
And if you must drink,
drink in the moments that take your breath away
- alex hitch hitchens
Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children's games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer
Posted by tocks! at 22:01
22 July 2006
spooky mansion
im so sad i cant be there ):but nevermind
my dear HAUNTED HOUSE GHOSTS AND MONSTERS
i will be there, as spiritually as possible
i hope its a success.
and FRISBEE PEOPLE
i have faith in you all (:
plus, i think molly rocks all the pumpkin (no, potato) filled tunnels
i want my fossiled grasshoper ):
you know, i reckon today's gonna be quite an exciting day
with the spooky mansion and the frisbee and the retreat
nobody's gonna feel bored.
anyway, its time to go
being drama, but i feel like im leaving for a long long time
and the reluctance to leave is like RAH
i just want to sleep.
and ive stopped thinking
Posted by tocks! at 07:56
20 July 2006
walk the plank
preparing for the haunted house today was so fun!and i really think we did a pretty good job
even though i made a slanted coffin /:
but nevermind!
we had a hellalot of fun testing it out (:
and i got whacked while pretending to be a ghost
whacked HARD
-stares at mr wong
revenge came in a sweet form
when we trapped the boys in our two-three meters long tunnel
i hope we scare the shits out of the little kids (:
i love the bloody knives and the tombstone
and the banners and the plastered windows and just everything
and everybody was sad yesterday ):
girls and boys and teachers
i hope you are all feeling okay.
i felt like crying when i saw
the sadness in your eyes
im really really addicted to pirates now
like REAL addiction
why doesnt anybody else
think that humpty dumpty is cute! ):
I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating while I was falling
And I didn't mind
Posted by tocks! at 21:40
19 July 2006
greenloopie
Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty together again
did you know that humpty dumpty started off as a riddle
but somehow the answer to it is so widely known
that it just became a nursery rhyme (:
Posted by tocks! at 16:37
18 July 2006
black pearl
saavy?i dont see why that silly elizabeth swann would choose will turner
when there's jack sparrow, no CAPTAIN jack sparrow around (:
will turner is such a pansy boy!
and i think johnny depp is so versatile, he's amazing :D
and he has such a breathtaking gaze
if i were a guy
i would marry keira knightely (:
and i cant believe i waited for that 5 +++ freaking minutes
just to watch the retarded after credits part
DANG YOU JON!! hahahas!
its tuesday evening
and i have officially four dubloons left for the week.
FOUR
i might as well just start chewing on my own arm now
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes
ahhh, one of those sweet favourite songs
that i never get sick of (:
happy belated birthday carolyn hwee
happy birthday kang zhang mei
Posted by tocks! at 20:22
17 July 2006
voodoo
if my dad tells me that he wont be able to go for ptmwhich is almost a certainty already
and that ive gotta arrange another day for him to meet DA BITCH
then im going to put my sorry head into the oven
and watch my hair go up in flames
or do just what we've always thought of doing
put that ICE MOUNTAIN with the purple pink and white hair
into the microwavee
kaabooom! goes the microwave
okay a little too graphic and saddistic
eeewww
BUT i really really dont need another chance to talk to her
she hates me ENOUGH already
and fyi, woman
i am NEVER gonna get a deskjob
i dont need your advice on what i am good at
and what im not good at
just go away and go worry about your financial stability
ARGHS, im sucha MEGA BITCH
im sorry for all the CAPS
its just ANGRY WORDS NEED TO BE EMPHASISED
I THINK IT IS THE DREADED PMS
ah, i want to paint all my toes and fingers black
draw eyeliner eyeliner and more eyeliner
and go walking around scaring the neighbourhood kids
IM GONNA BE A MONSTER
relatively happy today
except for the little mishaps
with the pringles guy (not you mark)
andd the stupid woman
and the almost detentioned me
read that, ALMOST (:
now i get to wear a tie for the next few days :D
and i do actually like the tie
EYECANDY! <3
we all need a special superman
wish he was real though
so i could see him zooming across the sky
in his lucky red undies and cape
we'll all sleep better then
It may sound absurd but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Posted by tocks! at 19:51
16 July 2006
you got me like a rocket
okay, i cant remember whats been going onthe entire weekend
except that for the past one hour
ive been standing in the kitchen
and making countless dumplings for lunch
now my stomach's making weird groaning sounds
yet the food's not anywhere near ready
GIVE ME MY FOOD !
i made a voodoo doll!
yet to decide on the name
but its cuteee :D
okay it's supposed to be scary
for the haunted house cip the class is doing
BUT i dont care, i like cute
i think the best kind of comfort
is when a friend just silently listens
and despite knowing that both of you know the truth
just pretend to not know it and so we'll all feel better
silence is golden
i wish i had the ability to just snap my fingers
twirl around and nod my head
then make everyone's life
a little simpler and much happier
It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss
Posted by tocks! at 12:27
13 July 2006
twirl
okay, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIBINGi hope you like your chilli, your spain shirt
the water down your shirt
and the blueberry/blackforest cake (:
the class has decided to adopt a class pet
and the suggestions ranged from
giraffe, chicken, cat(in a cage), lobsters, oysters
and STARFISH!
i think we should get a pufferfish
today, we had a temporary class pet
J Jr. the goldfish that eats its own shit
and gets constant death threats
and that some boys want to eat their own pets
AND girls too - let's keep a pomfret then we can eat it! /:
other girls try to get over their fear of chickens chasing after them
by suggesting we keep a chicken in class
i was thinking of partially converting to being a vegetarian
like stop eating meat for a while
just to DETOX! and to let a few more animals survive
and just, for fun.
but i ended up eating pork and liver and chicken thigh today ):
so much for say no to meat
A poem with no rhyme
A dancer out of time
Posted by tocks! at 16:23
12 July 2006
mankind
durian breath! :Dokay, happy birthday mj!
i am still burping durian!
joe : ice cream makes people fat
me : i know!! -laughs and leaves for island creamery
hahahs, im so immuned to this fat nonsense
i just go about eating ALL that i want to (:
and i had icecream!
YUMMY, chocolate craving satisfied
i think sexism is an interesting gp topic
sexism is both a cause and effect, goes about in cycle
a sexist does sexist actions, which cause even MORE sexism
like if your parents bring you up with obvious preference to males
and taught girls to be more submissive to guys
then you'll become like one of them too
and think that females are inferior.
even the english language is sexist!
huMAN, MANkind and superMAN
take prostitutes and gigloos
technically the same, but gigloo has a higher status
with their armani suits and rolex watches
while prostitutes are just sleazy hookers and whores.
introducing the new apple product
the iDIOT
resembles the homosapiens
height range of 1.65m to 2m
facial and body hair is a common trait
tends to behave like uncivilized beasts in eating and playing
hahahas, okay just a slight stroke of genius
if you can even call it genius
JOKING ONLY OKAY
before i get mistaken for a feminist!
sexism but in the unconventional sense (:
When I'm feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I'm not so blue
When you're close to me, I can feel your heart beat
I can hear you breathing near my ear
Posted by tocks! at 18:11
11 July 2006
solitare
Cinderella said to Snow WhiteHow does love get so off course
All I wanted was a white knight
With a good heart, soft touch, fast horse
idealistic world dont you think
we all grow up reading too many fairytales.
dunked in too much hope
fairytales are a happy-fier though :D
the sudoku craze is taking over the entire class
its an invasion!
even RUM AND RAISIN attempts to sudoku!
we all spend break together today
its been awhile since the whole class ate together (:
Like a wave the ocean just can't control
Connected by a feeling n our very souls
Posted by tocks! at 17:07
10 July 2006
haert acttak
i was just attempting to drown myself in the showeri dont know why im feeling so crummy
and obviously i didnt succeed.
maybe i should continue stuffing myself with cranberries instead
my complexion's hideous now
HORRIBLE BREAKOUT
which just makes things worse
okay wait, im being too self absorbed
which im not supposed to be
and get over the fact that the world doesnt orbit about my fat head
and ive got tonnes of work to complete /:
too many essays to write
GAHH. head, please quit hurting.
qn: how do you tickle a rich girl?
ans : gucci gucci!
hahahahas, so cute
Posted by tocks! at 20:20
clayed
it's ironic how no one could make your dayexcept for six rabbits just munching on grass by the canal
i miss my rabbits ):
this is sunshine, male
he was always a gentleman, slow and sweet in his ways
fur so fine, i like :D
died a young man of some strange disease that i never knew existed ):
he left his mark though (toothmarks?!)
and his blood runs through the veins of his three surviving (i hope) kids
this is moonlight, female
wife of sunshine
impulsive and clumsy (:
completely like an unrefined lady
but cute nonetheless
died a odd death though
and still dearly loved.
some words evoke so much thoughti believe i created a new record for myself
i dont think ive ever eFFed till 29 marks for maths! ):
grades were good and bad, so lets just forget it
and pretend its all gonna be okay
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
Posted by tocks! at 18:34
09 July 2006
aye aye capt'n!
sugar overload!!
im eternally in love with girlfriends who make the world orbit :D
i want to become a lesbian
but then again, i would be stuck with the difficult choice of which of these lovely girls to marry
and somemore unphotographed ones!
i have such pretty girlfriends! (:
too many to choose from!
hahahhhhh (:
SMELLY BOYS BE JEALOUS!
I WANNA BE A PIRATE!!
johnny depp takes my breath away (:
and pirate = freedom
horizon here i come
Posted by tocks! at 22:49
punch drunk love
ants had a strange affinity with me todayfirst, there were ants at the bus stop
so a nice girl told me about the pool of ants on the ground
and in turn
i told a woman about the pool of ants after that
then i decided to try climbing the mango tree
and i was halfway up the branch
when i saw many many ants on the tree
so of cos, i left the tree
and ants attacked my DA PAO just now
there were crawling all over the PAO
and now its creepy to even think about the pao ):
and im accidental prone cannn
i scratched my shin on the tree i was attempting to scale
and i walked into a bench yesterday
so i'm left with ugly scarrings of bruises and cuts
gahh UNGLAM ):
and i want to stay over next door (:
I WANT TO STEAL YOUR BEAN BAG
i like laughing at myself and our inability to breathe
and what other nonsense
it's like feeling like you never have to do anything else again
i want to spend mundane days walking about with good company
aimlessly walking is good
i like long bus rides nowadays
it brings peace (:
i'm so weird now
it freaks me out sometimes
i have so many I want to ....
i'm starting to lose count.
much as humans are social beings
i think, we dont really need anyone else to survive
physically yes we need the butcher, the garbage man
for life to function normally
but emotionally i think we only want others to be around
we do not however need anyone
i dont know, but i think i would DIE of loneliness
if i were to get stuck on an isolated with plentiful supply of food
but then left alone
i'm so conflicted. hahahas
i want, therefore i need
or i need, therefore i want
Here I am this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true
Posted by tocks! at 00:10
07 July 2006
euphemism
i should learn to live with my imperfectionsyesterday night and for a good part of this morning
i had a major fit about my abnormally large face
and went around complaining about the strangeness of that
the best condolence came from val
who simply said that
she'd rather i had a large face and a small [HUR like real!] body
then a hugee body and a small face
ahhh, the beauty of reverse psychology
if this is even considered reverse psychology
i think we should have minimal expectations
and then that way we wouldnt feel the heartache of whatever happens
so even on a bad hair day
you'll feel just as beautiful
and even if you failed everything
you can look on the bright side of life
When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps.
Just purse your lips and whistle.
That's the thing.
And always look on the bright side of life
i had a good chat with zm (:
even if it went to talking about marriage
ahhh, how odd.
it's funny how i manage to connect so well with people
that i would have thought impossible a couple of years back
All our lives we had fun,
we had seasons in the sun
but the stars we could reach
were just starfish on the beach
i think all that im looking for now
is simple, uncomplicated relationships around
that will pull me through this year
people who i can just be myself with
and nothing superficial or political (:
i thought a little about my direction of life for this year today
and its comforting to see myself being steered somewhere.
I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
so why am I ten feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface
Posted by tocks! at 18:19
06 July 2006
eudaimonia
i feel strangely distant from everyone elseever since school started this week
its like i hardly see anyone besides the much loved class anymore ):
so all the other corridor friends, the canteen break friends
the after school gang and everyone else just vanished!
I AM SAD
everyone should tag often
and talk to me more online
and message me moree
so i wont feel so distant!!! RAHH
make up for the lost company
and they were all the living and the dead, becoming shadows
virgin suicides is cool but morbid
psychotic movie
shows that confining someone at home too much
can lead to them putting their own heads in the oven
i hope im not giving anyone any ideas
hahahas oh well
Doctor : What are you doing here, honey? You're not even old enough to know how bad life gets.
Cecilia : Obviously, Doctor, you've never been a 13-year-old girl
sometimes we question our existence
if fahy's lecture is right
it would be to be happy
the more right in doing what we do, the happier we are
and causing people to be unhappy is wrong
and i do not that think happiness is just a long term feeling
im happy playing sudoku during maths, georg and gp lecture
and that may not be right
but what if i dont give much of a damn
i hate the fact that everyone's starting to mug again
the abnormality of it all
and the workload, much as i try to pretend it doesnt exist
is unbelievable
I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere in the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do
Posted by tocks! at 21:34
05 July 2006
abyss
sighh what more can a girl wish for (:i think geeks are cute
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile if only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
Posted by tocks! at 19:03
04 July 2006
touch your toes
i'm like a RED HOT LOBSTERhahas, i hate the fact that i burn
instead of getting a bronzed tan!
i feel strangely empty and hollow
like somethings missing ):
its like everythings falling back into place
now that schools started all over again
and much as it may seem insignificant
its like the dream that was lived during a holiday is over
and it's time for reality
i think as we grow older
we become more realistic
and increasingly losing our naiveness
which is technically good, since we grow up
but we also at the same time
lose the realness of being human
and we just slowly become selfish beings
which is pretty sad dont you think
that instead of becoming better humans
we start to degenerate and at the end
become worthless pieces of crap
it really takes a lot to preserve the innocence
and to hold on to the essence of life.
hahas, just thinking
edit //
just read van's blog
and when she said that she is envious of birds and fishes
i cant help but say brava!
cant we all be brainless fishes
it just reminded me of some time long ago
when we were driving down some ulu road somewhere in the world
then my dad was like
"the duckie is playing in the puddle, it's so happy"
hahahhh, so cute
and even though at that time we were trying to argue that it might not be happy
but we all knew that
the ducks actually have more fun.
On the day I fall in love
Sky will be a perfect blue
And I'll give my heart forever more
To someone who is just like you
The day I fall in love
Posted by tocks! at 22:55
03 July 2006
canned love
1. Are you in a relationship?nopee
2. Do you hate more than 3 people?
errrr, i've given up hating. does dislike to a terrible extent count?
3. How many houses have you lived in?
two, plus my play house :D
4. What is your favorite candy bar?
i like chocolate bars with raisins and stuff. not candied caramel nonsense!
5. What are your favorite shoes?
flip flops (: i practically tread around the globe in them
6. Have you ever tripped someone?
not that i can remember
7. What was your least favorite subject this year?
maths 9233
8. What was your favorite subject this year?
georgraphy! :D
9. Have you ever thrown up in public?
i hope not!!! hahas, UNGLAM LAHHH
10. Name something that's always on your mind
foood (:
11. What is your favorite music genre?
genreless
12. What is your sign?
capricorn, BAAAHHHH
13. What time were you born?
23something.
14. Do you like beer?
depends, sometimes i do.
15. Have you ever made a prank call?
yupp i think so
16. Are you sarcastic?
not really, just ultra biatchhy.
17. What are your favorite colors?
black white BROWN purple red yellow greenn. it depends really.
18. How many watches do you own?
one, that got domestically stolen
19. Summer or winter?
both! summer for the sun, winter for the cold. okay, duh
20. Spring or fall?
both! hahahas.
21. What is your favorite color to wear?
my wardrobe is mainly neutral stuff. BLACK WHITE :D
22. Sprite or coke?
i dont really care, how about ice milo!
23. What color is your cell phone?
BLACK BLACK.
24. Where is your second home?
school i suppose, NO LIFE /:
25. Have you ever slapped someone?
been there, done it
26. Have you ever had a cavity?
yeahh the dentist filled it up
27. How many lamps are in your bedroom?
no lamps, three lights.
28. How many video games do you own?
nonne
29. What was your first pet?
i can't remember. fishes, birds or dogs.
30. Have you ever had braces?
nopee, they're cute though!
31. Do looks matter?
decent and pleasant looking is good enough for me.
32. Do you use Chapstick?
when my lips are chapped.hahahas
33. Name 3 teachers from your high school.
mr teee, miss ng, HML.
34. American Eagle or Abercrombie?
abercrombie
35. Are you too forgiving?
i tend to forget more often than forgive. im rather spiteful!! HEHEHEHEE
36. How many children do you want?
three or four.
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
nopee
38. What is your favorite breakfast?
subway sandwich (:
39. Do you own a gun?
i wish i did!
40. Have you ever thought you were in love?
yes, how unfortunate.
41. When was the last time you cried?
i cant remember
42. What did you do 3 nights ago?
chilled out at home (:
43. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden?
wth is that ?
44. Have you ever called your teacher mom?
i dont think so.
45. Have you ever been in a castle?
i cant fit in a sandcastle dudddeee. hahas
46. What are your nicknames?
tocks, tocksie, wantock, tick tock
or any other variation the human mind can possibly think of
47. Do you know anyone named Bertha?
errmm bertha something from harry potter!
48. Have you ever been to Kentucky?
i visit kentucky fried chicken regularly, harr harr.
49. Do you own something from Banana Republic?
nopee
50. Are you thinking about somebody right now?
not really. how about fascinated by bonjovi's voice
51. Have you ever called someone Boo?
hahas, benny BOO!
52. Do you smoke?
why would i pay to burn my lungs.
53. Do you own a diamond ring?
i wishh DIAMONDS GREW ON TREES (:
54. Are you happy with your life right now?
not today, but overall pretty much.
55. Do you dye your hair?
i want jet black hair, which is however unachievable.
56. Does anyone like you?
i dont think so
57. What year were you born?
onenineeighteight
58. What were you doing May of 1994?
being a six year old kid
59. McDonald's or Wendy's?
mcdonalds! cos i dont know whats wendy's.
anyway, salt and msg and sugar is yummy
60. Do you like yourself?
i suppose so
61. Are you closer to your mother or father?
i get angry with my mum more often but have less things to talk about with my dad
errr, about the same la
62. Favorite feature of the opposite sex?
i'm a sucker for nice eyes and a great smile, like SMILE!
63. Are you afraid of the dark?
depends on my mood. if i'm feel really lonely, YES
64. Have you ever eaten paste?
i ate kiddy toothpaste cos it was strawberry flavoured and looked like jelly
65. Do you have a webcam?
nope
66. Have you ever stripped?
toilet lah. hahas
Posted by tocks! at 21:43
ivory
im dreading tomorrowwhen everything is going to start all over again
and into an vicious, endless cycle of studying, panicking,
screaming and studying ):
RAAAHH
darkness looms overhead
just like lowhanging threads of poison
okay wth /:
it's like just when youre starting to have fun
everything becomes unfun again ):
i dont want school!!!
someone take me FARTHERR away from here
hahahas, okay bad mistake! :D
i want to disappear to a schooless land
why is it that this is becoming some sort of obligation
to have to be so close when words fade into the background
yet somehow, knowing that such closeness still exists when you turn around.
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are twenty five minutes too late