30 November 2005

im ill!!
croaking like a toad now
how can anyone lose their voices overnight?!
so i ponned work
okay, i didnt go to work today!
i dont want to risk spreading the germs around
see how nice i am! ((:
and hehhh its a chance to slack off work
cos i cannot take five consecutive days of
scanning worksheets
it is, in my opinion
the foulest job in the entire building
okay maybe not FOULEST
but it really isnt any fun
plus no job satisfaction
unless you include the pile of worksheets
that move from the unscanned to scanned stack
okay maybe im making too huge a fuss over my job
but aiyah just let me rant CAN CAN CAN!! :D

im motivated by money only
which is what keeps me hanging on
why else will i want to continue
sharing the roslyn auntie's table
and having to steal her staple and pencil and erase AND pen
oh yeah elfie
i finished up your pen HEHH (:
and being just half a metre away from
ester monster
who really isnt THAT monsterish
just that her maternal instincts are rather
overwhealming, for lack of better word
hahahas
and the only cool person around
is gordon aka howard, who wears cool shoes!
silver soccer shoes
and black and orange shoes
but all he's done is to steal my staple and pen
and the phone just keeps ringing
NAF NAF GORDON GORDON SCOTT SCOTT
are all hot favourites
and the door keeps buzzing
plus for a moment yesterday
some idiot put the buzz sensor in my path
so while i was happily sharing roslyns desk
everytime i pick up a pen
or scratch my nose
or unstapleize a stack of something
the buzz will ring
which is honestly, FREAKING IRRITATING

suddenly i wish i come turn back time
and go back to painting pictures to put up
in those cutesy rooms
really, my elephant's looking rather happy
but someone damaged my candy train ):
at least while we were painting
the time passed faster ((:

val is flying off to thailand this evening
im excited for her
and for myself.
HAH :D
and mcron's left for shanghai too
excited excited
wished i was either in thailand or china
either way, it's SHOPPING SPREE
ooh lala
cant wait for my paycheck
i think im going to end up blowing the entire amount
on shopping
ahhahas, impulsive shopper!

i havent blogged for so long
thats why im ranting
okay let me continue

kaka i wanna go see your parrot again
its cuter than you
hahas okay, kidding only (:
lets go shopping soon
like seriously SOON!
we keep saying that
but somehow the shopping spree
that we've planned since forever
has yet to happen

i kinda miss everybody here and there
i miss my teetwelvers, OUR COOLER HALF
and not to mention the neutral army of three
i hope next year, things will be the same
but better :D
actually im sure it will
then i miss the other schoolies
just random people that you see
some less significant, some more significant
but all the same i miss everyone
all the hi and bye friends aka ACQUAINTANCES
hahahs, hi and bye sounds nicer la (:
the good-er friends that i talk to
and just everyone!
i swear im starting to miss even people like
annoying assholes next door
and some people i usually hate to see
i just need to see them so i can vent frustration again!
plus its been a while since ive seen feli
like almost two weeks!
and carolyn, a few days
hmms, i miss moo
i dont know why im doing the name thing again
its been so long since ive done it
but i just suddenly feel like
ohgay (:

ive just been reading and working
nothing much other than that
then i try to catch some proper sleep
yesterday night i slept at 1130
thats damn rare can!
after i stop work
its time to catch up with people properly
ive been too tired to like have good conversations
and hanging out with people
its amazing how much sucha job can affect me
oh well
and its only when you have to rack your brains
on what to wear everyday
that you realise you have very little clothes

theres something chrismassy in the air
which actually
shows that this year is ending
and no matter how tempted i am to write
a good reflection of 2005
i shall wait till christmas is nearer
cos the holidays have some kind of effect on you
it casts this like reflective and appreciative magic
i love christmas
just not doing anything much
and just looking at all pretty things
sparkly glitter ornaments
and no ones really angry on christmas (:
cos cos I WAS BORN!
hahahhh
that was an ego out burst
pardon me :D

im msn-ing my dad now
how retarded
he's funny.
he uses the most random icons
at the stupidest times
and way too many DOTS
oh gosh
but like COOL CAN
ahahs after all
i taught him how to msn (:

Sixteen years, sixteen prayers
Sixteen reasons why I care
Sixteen tears, you're sixteen still
Sweet sixteen girl

Posted by tocks! at 13:52

24 November 2005

work is killing me
seriously its no joke
it may be painting and drawing
but having to decorate like
FOUR?!!
very messy and ugly rooms
is no simple feat.
one more day to complete the rooms /:
i cant believe its taken 3 girls
four days, thirty seven hours
and we've yet to complete the rooms
my backs gonna break
and my eyes are shutting
i'll be back and alive once i get my rest
good night all (:

I took my love, I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills’
til the landslide brought it down

Posted by tocks! at 23:53

21 November 2005

my first day as an employee
first time in my life can!!
ahahahs, okay
ive got a cool but tiring job
seriously having to draw
paint and cut fishes is no easy task alright!
but it was cool ((:
so we have a jellyfish family
with sexaye mummy jelly with red lips
and then theres mr puffy!
the pufferfish
i likee :D
and not to forget the square whale
ahahs with the erm KENA SHOCKED smile
and i dont care
im wearing slippers in tomorrow ((:
its in the ulu-est place ever
where is middle road supposed to be /:
im doing the planet room tomorrow!

Cause there's a crack in his plastic crown
And his throne of ice is melting
He climbed his ladder
There was nothing there
And now it's a long way down

Posted by tocks! at 23:31

18 November 2005

i suddenly feel very old
yet i feel very young at the same time
its like im almost seventeen,
sounds young, but in reality
its just four years away from twentyone
and four years isnt really such a long time
people start talking to you about university
and what youre going to do in your life
yet at the same time i feel young
so immature and childish

i just happened to chance upon
some of my sister's friends photos
and just look at them
young tender age of fifteen
okay maybe not so young and tender
but the way they act
the way they dress
its like some kids playing dressup
all done up in eyeliner and fancy handbags
tall tall stilettos and bikinis
maybe im the immature one
or maybe the kids these day
oh gosh that just sounded SO old
are growing up way too fast
since when did fifteen year old kids go clubbing
or maybe im just not used to seeing
a bunch of teenage girls drinking

then i look back
at the age of fifteen
i was errr
checking out fanfiction every afternoon
having good old school fun
hanging out in the holidays
but only once in a while /:
buying white sneakers with a pink flowers
oh goshh
maybe im a bit immature
but surely theyre growing up too fast
whatever happened to the awkward in between years
of child and adult
childish as this may sound
i prefer to take my own time
erm. exploring
and enjoying each moment of
my sixteen going on seventeen year (:
which is actually
going to end pretty soon
hehhh.
santa claus is coming to town (:

And I was drifting away
a drop in the ocean
And now I've realized that
nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes

Posted by tocks! at 21:22

17 November 2005

ultimate couch potato!
i woke up at 1130
from a deep slumber beginning
twelve hours before that
then it was tv, lunch, tv, dinner, tv
ultra laziness all combined together!

harry was exciting :D
and i think ron is hot
like just check out those arms!!
wowww and he's like 176.
tall, but not too tall ((:
i thought the dragon part was great
plus the effects were good
okay, i need to watch it again.
as soon as i get the money to spare

Would you like to swing on a star
carry moonbeams home in a jar
and be better off than you are

Posted by tocks! at 21:19

16 November 2005

it was love at first sight
so many days ago
in suntec city
and for many many days
i couldnt forget about it
but then
i went back again today
hoping to end up with a happily ever after
but then
it was a failed attempt
vnc didnt have the heels in my size!!
ROARRS
i swear my heart broke when the women said
we only have size 6 and above
oh goshh ))):
so i went home without my love
okay its so dramatic
but i swear it was rather heartbreaking
and i saw this pair of awesome jeans from ozoc
but aiyahh
they didnt have the colour i want in my size
sobs.

but at least i had my tomyum soup
ive been craving it for days i swear
and it was good
yummy yummy yummy
ive got love tom yum soup in my tummy!!

young girl that i used to know
sung a lullaby and stole the show from everyone
i tell ya just when she closed her eyes
she saw the world and she fantasised it was part of her
and it was beautiful

Posted by tocks! at 00:45

14 November 2005

i do enjoy long talks
together with long walks!
ahahahs, omg it rhymes :D
okay finally ive a life today
i havent had a life for many days already

oh yes before i forget
happy birthday kevin ((:
i remember your present
WANTED : xx

i swear my phone bill this month
is going to shoot way up.
and its due to many people
ive been on phone call marathons
for quite a few days already
mindless chatter and gossip sessions
and heart and heart conversations
not to forget ranting calls

some songs may seem boring
when you first hear it
and doesnt grab your attention
but somehow, i grow fond of some of these
the more i listen
the more i want to listen to it again
and now i press the play again button
on my dearest winamp.
jump by lee ryan ((:

We know that life was never meant to last,
So who cares if we're going way too fast,
Let's make the best of what life brings us,
There's no such thing as reaching up too high,
Why can't we build our castles in the sky,
Run from the rooftops, we won't stop,
Baby come on...
Jump
Take that leap of faith,
Take that leap with me,
We can make it if you just believe,
Girl you'll never feel more alive than,
When you and I are skydiving,
Jump,
Even if we fall, even if we break,
Tell me it's not worth the chance you take,
To know that for a while we were flying,
You and I skydiving

Posted by tocks! at 20:12

12 November 2005

you know the kind of foreboding
that you feel right before you fall asleep
its like the knowledge that the next day
is going to be one big mess
and nothing will go right.
i was feeling that last night
but this morning
i woke up emotionless
and ive lived about 7 hours emotionlessly
no anger or annoy-ness
no joy no sadness
its like im stuck in a state of flat emotions.
strangeness really
and it seems like my mind's thinking deep thoughts
but i cant remember what im thinking about.
im in a state of coma /:
i must be, theres no other explanation for it
its like i just want to dig a hole and hide in there
i think i can stay there the whole day without feeling bored
all ive done is eat lunch, read gof, go for tuition

and i sat on the swing again
i was alone there
until like after i started digging my toes into the sand
a happy secondary school couple
decided to use the playground as their
romantic spot.
so i just left them alone

i told my sister not to talk to me
cos i didnt feel like conversing today
whoever said that i can never keep my mouth shut
i just choose not to.
cos i just didnt feel like processing
any thoughts right now.
im even listening to music
instead of songs
lyric-less things.

i think im a secret village girl
which other people would prefer
living in a cottage-ish looking house
rather than a modern glass home.
i will choose a victorian mansion
or a black and white colonial house
to a funky downtown penthouse.
many trees will have to die for me to furnish my house
and i wont have to spend on glass surfaces
i want big soft sofas
and ceramic kitchens with vases
bedrooms with printed flower quilts
and big brown cabinets ((:

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea
You became the light on the dark side of me

Posted by tocks! at 17:39

happy birthday val
i never realised that
you were a 11/11 baby ((:

girlfriend connection!!
so we talked
and we laughed
and we crapped
about all things serious
and all other nonsense
above all, i starved.
and i freeloaded.
cos my pockets now two big holes now
from god knows where
but the hole's just going to grow larger
please tell me if you know of any job openings ((:
this is one poor girl speaking.

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go

Posted by tocks! at 00:08

09 November 2005

there are some words that are meant to be said
even if truths hurt
aiyahh hearts break anyhow
and also there are somethings that i cant withold
and just needed to be made clear
things like different priorities
sometimes, i get so carried away
i get blown off track by all the excitement
that i forget things that truly matter
and im glad to get matters settled back into place ((:
its not the first time ive gotten lost in myself
but it just goes to show that some things that are forever
are truly worth cherishing.
okay, even though there are many things
that should be treasured
some things i just plain should not forget
thank you for still being there

okay, sometimes
it feels good to rant :D

and i just ranted to my sister
she insisted on telling me some truths
its always nice to hear from her pov
cos she's one person who's so honest its harsh
but having heard all that
it just reminds me once again
of who i am,
and what i deserve
yay im happy.

We had a beautiful thing going,
You couldn't see things my way.
We had a beautiful thing going,
Something just got in our way.

Posted by tocks! at 20:15

06 November 2005

wild canvas at oasis
we just bummed around being useless
game masters and name writer and water carrier
six hours of cip. finally
ahahaas.
and we chalet-ed ((:
our bonding sessions
our hanging out days with nothing to do
and unscary movies /:
plus surprise cake!!

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Posted by tocks! at 22:07

03 November 2005

our lover shirts with our handprints
is the momento of our CIP date together.
mcron wong and i.
ahahhahas.
okay we were losers together during the briefing
but at least we had each other
when we realised our shirts that we painted
were damn couple-ish it was already too late
but its the coolest shirt la
how often do you get a shirt with you name on it!
mr cabbage head aka sprite man on one sleeve
and the miraculously squarefaced girl with a big mole on another
the shirt is way too big
but its sexaye on the sexaye partners
the matthew guy was rather assholic
but at least he announced us best buddies
and allowed us to be emcees for CIP together
maybe we'll be caught on tv ((:
we had maggi mash potato for brunch
and baked rice for lunch
my date for today HAHAHA
sacrificed two hours of sleep to wait with me
for a girl who "flew" down from eunos
and we just bummed at the left side of the cityhall mrt
camoflaging into the wall behind us
the wonders of secret sharing :D

happy mcronnie day !
ahahahhas.
go read his blog for the same day in his pov

Posted by tocks! at 22:18

02 November 2005

i feel like im a bitch.
okay go away bitchy witchy
time for tocks to come back
oh raahh. /:
time management skills is essential to living
aiyahh im a mess.
im sorry for being a mess
but the cleaner is coming soon ((:

pw is possibly the dumbest thing
moe ever came up with
oh well
waste of good precious time
and im off to think what to wear
for the smu briefing tmr
something thats presentable
after all its SMU
but at the same time can be splattered
and dirtied with paint

EDIT//
on a lighter note HUR HUR HUR
i got electrocuted by the plug last night
by a freaking electric mosquito repellant
while i was unplugging it
i swear im lucky to be alive

and oh before i forget
its 1159pm (coincidentally i swear)
so while its still 02nov
happy birthday little sister ((:
continue going on shopping sprees
so i can get new clothes and bags
even if youre taller than me
and even if you swear and holler at me
with words that should be banned for
erm. fifteen year olds
youre still a little sister.
its now 1201am
not your birthday anymore
teehees :D

She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner
like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on a wire

Posted by tocks! at 20:45

01 November 2005

trick or treat!!
halloweening was pretty fun
i was a err goth blind mouse
normal blind mice dont have black nails do they
it was pretty cool walking around
three blind mice
man in black
two goths
and one loser boy [no, he's xmen!]
the houses at sixth avenue
or wherever it is we went
are so freaking cool lahh
MANSIONS with fake spiderwebs
ceramic jack-o-lanterns
and big big swimming pools
wayy too cool (:
and prata tastes best at midnight :D

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love,
the love that I love

Posted by tocks! at 20:12