30 March 2006

we should prata and walk in the rain everyday
its therapeutic
three hour long talks
mindless chatter, yet so much to say
my longest friend that attracts all the wrong people
that gets scary stalkers and knows queensway ah lians
i love you and your teh peng! :D


my stomach feels a little queer
maybe its the running
maybe its the prata
maybe, its just me.
it feels like butterflies in the stomach
but no one gets butterflies for 2 hours do they?
maybe its houseflies.


Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Posted by tocks! at 21:27

29 March 2006

i think my computer just died
with all my FDI info inside
all waiting for me to write my essay thats due
TOMORROW
im just pretending nothing is wrong now
just for a moment
cos being self delusional for a while
may just give some time
and allow the chocolate effect to set in
i took four squares of rittersport
for extra effect.
not four BIG squares.
four flat cubes.

i wish i was ridiculously beautiful
i wish i was a more interesting person
i think im boring
if i could have a choice of superpower
i want i spend with people
to be really, really fun.
i think i should wish to be more myself
and to quit being an insecure blob.
im going to make a wish now
even though its 1810
not 1111.
work sucks, i know.

Posted by tocks! at 17:59

28 March 2006

happy belated birthday to jepenga
cheers to two years of great friendship
of tears and laughter
and strong bonds that hold us close together, forever.
if i could reach the top of the rainbow
i would write all your names across the sky
really.

surprises round the corner
like easter eggs and dust bunnies
hidden in places
you never expected to find such suprise.

Posted by tocks! at 22:50

26 March 2006

tear away that mask
and see the real me
another wise man tells me
that theres more to me than i show (:
i thank god everyday for my friends.


It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine,
everything will be alright

Posted by tocks! at 01:23

25 March 2006

big things are made up of small things
so small things matter
booooo
situation's getting to my head
i wish i would quit being silly
and that i should be happy with the way
things are.
however, feeling a little lousy
its quite inevitable i guess
and no one i can really say it to
and no one else to understand

i kinda miss you.
suddenly, its overwhealming


If I kissed you
Would fireworks fly
Would angels sing with lollipops
Would dinosaurs cry
Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
If I kissed you

Posted by tocks! at 22:50

23 March 2006

ten random facts
- I love ice cream and i cannot lie (:

- mass pe-ing (peeing) makes me sleepy
- i like biscuit sandwiched with condensed milk and milo powder
- go shopping for happy earrings :D
- i've got iq 133 according to tickle.com!!!
- secret fear of papercut in the eye
- you and i sky diving , JUMP!
- therapeutic talks and long walks
- i want a rainbow factory that makes shooting stars
- someone else has my brown jumper ):


chloroflurocarbon!
CFCs /:
anyway
maths = faths
noun ; pronounced as fats (:


Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

Posted by tocks! at 23:16

21 March 2006

Frans and the pussycats!
i'm your no.1 fan
there (:
now you gotta give me your autograph!

Posted by tocks! at 22:25

18 March 2006

maybe im just selfish
who knows
maybe im making excuses for myself
its just unfair
cos good times never happen to me
and others just.
get it too easy
so im just a sour grape
but its like im almost there
but someone does a 100m sprint
and just crosses the finishing line
before i manage to
no ones fault
but makes you feel absolutely rotten

i feel like ranting on
and going on about how
unfair life is to me
and how the world just treats me like crap
but thats just so EEEEEEE
so i wont ;)

and you know
ive got so much i wish i could say
but some words just dont.
come out
i wish i can make it clear
that i dont have a choice
and when its all youve got
you have to take it
even if sometimes you end up
pleading for it
cos its just. all ive got.

i find it hard to open up
and tell others the truth
cos its sucha small world
and everyone's kinda interlinked
that i dont feel comfortable
when i say such things


T: i suddenly feel like turning lesbian
A: OMG
A: NO!
A: WTH!

hahas you are so cute (:
it was just a random comment
hahahs
love her reaction :D
you make me smile too silly!

Posted by tocks! at 01:54

14 March 2006

sometimes i wish to just block out everything
whenever the screaming starts
i deserve better
even if its my fault
but screw it, just get over it would you.
maybe it is about me
but you guys arent being sympathetic too
sometimes i really wish to be elsewhere

and bad things just come all together
like i havent got enough on my dish
i wish we can come to a conclusion
in a calm cool manner
but we never seem to be able to do so
but do realise that the only reason
i even bother trying to make it okay
is cos im aware of your importance
and that what you think
does make a difference

BIG MOMMA! :D

Posted by tocks! at 23:23

Mondays child is fair of face

Tuesdays child is full of grace

Wednesdays child is full of woe

Thursdays child has far to go

Fridays child is loving and giving

Saturdays child works hard for his living

And the child that is born on the Sabbath day

Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay (:

Posted by tocks! at 20:25

i declare my love for

brokeback boy (:

tocks <3 ennis



Goodbye,

there's just no sadder word to say

And it's sad to walk away

with just the memories

Who's to know what might have been

We'll leave behind a life and time

We'll never know again

Posted by tocks! at 20:16

13 March 2006

i was watching csi

and the guy said

when he wants to feel small

helooks at the night sky

and its brilliant really



i came home late a few nights ago

and there was no clouds that night

the stars just. filled the entire night sky

it was breath-taking

even though much of it got blocked by rooftops

and i only had that small patch of sky

it was gorgeous (:

ive had a strange attraction to stars

since way long ago

i never like studied it in depth or anything

but i just like looking at them.



i keep getting disappointed

and i think its self inflicted

i dont know, but the things they do

i just wish for more

and everyones taking a step further away

with each breath i take

its like youre rooted to the same old spot

while everyones running the race

and you cant run

but you know you shouldnt scream

cos you'll just hold back the others

so you just stay rooted.

as everyone runs past you

and even as the race ends

youre still stuck at the same spot



So listen with all your heart

Hold it inside forever

You may find all your dreams

have already come true

Look inside and find

the part that's leading you

Cause that's the beat of a heart

No one can tell you how to get there

It's a road you take all by yourself

Posted by tocks! at 16:36

ive had so many random thoughts
im unable to put it down
all at once now ):


i dont understand why
people are so shallow
superficial
why the world is not fair
> it is tanned
hehhh ((:


i wish i could be a facil everyday
cos im pretty happy there
its one of those days
when you dont feel so useless
just cos you cant sing
cant play ball
cant draw cant dance
but GOD IS FAIR
and we all have our hidden talents (:
i keep hearing wise words
from the most unexpected places
and it feels good
to hear honest opinions.
but if i were a facil everyday
i'll miss my class


watching that bit of brokeback
provoked a lot of thoughts in my head
erm. non kinky ones.
ahhahas
i always thought i had a thing
for loud noisy outgoing guys
but i was more attracted
to the quiet guy in the show instead
even though he mumbles constantly
and i hear only a quarter of what he says
there was something comforting about
that silent figure
if only he was straight ):


i wish that we've got nice mountains
and valleys here in singapore
im in the mood for some
mountain-top sitting (:


Baby let's go riding those shooting stars
Watch the cresent moon smile to your heart
Shine.Your gonna shine.

Posted by tocks! at 00:58

12 March 2006

HELLO!
tocks is back
the layout's going to be temporary
until i can find the root of the problem
but anyway, welcome back me. :D

ive been so lonely and blogless lah!
and ive had so many things to say
but without a space for me to rant
some pple had to open their ears (:

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like it was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

Posted by tocks! at 23:25