12 November 2005
you know the kind of foreboding
that you feel right before you fall asleep
its like the knowledge that the next day
is going to be one big mess
and nothing will go right.
i was feeling that last night
but this morning
i woke up emotionless
and ive lived about 7 hours emotionlessly
no anger or annoy-ness
no joy no sadness
its like im stuck in a state of flat emotions.
strangeness really
and it seems like my mind's thinking deep thoughts
but i cant remember what im thinking about.
im in a state of coma /:
i must be, theres no other explanation for it
its like i just want to dig a hole and hide in there
i think i can stay there the whole day without feeling bored
all ive done is eat lunch, read gof, go for tuition
and i sat on the swing again
i was alone there
until like after i started digging my toes into the sand
a happy secondary school couple
decided to use the playground as their
romantic spot.
so i just left them alone
i told my sister not to talk to me
cos i didnt feel like conversing today
whoever said that i can never keep my mouth shut
i just choose not to.
cos i just didnt feel like processing
any thoughts right now.
im even listening to music
instead of songs
lyric-less things.
i think im a secret village girl
which other people would prefer
living in a cottage-ish looking house
rather than a modern glass home.
i will choose a victorian mansion
or a black and white colonial house
to a funky downtown penthouse.
many trees will have to die for me to furnish my house
and i wont have to spend on glass surfaces
i want big soft sofas
and ceramic kitchens with vases
bedrooms with printed flower quilts
and big brown cabinets ((:
There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea
You became the light on the dark side of me
Posted by tocks! at 17:39