mini me

epilogue

2007-01-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

i've moved.
tags are still welcomed here

chandlier skies

2007-01-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

i don't feel like ever blogging again.
maybe i'll change my mind tomorrow, nextweek, never.
i'll think about it.

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us in the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby

bemuse

2007-01-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

i am a boxing champion!
the only reason others won was due to sheer leprechaun luck!
and air punching in front of a telly
was the best workout i've had in a really long time :D

BUT i am a serious walking accident.
i'm sorry bestfriend! ):

because the city's always more beautiful at night

and i think that insanity keeps me sane.

Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish

down for a while

2007-01-17T12:18:00.000+08:00

my instincts are always wrong, right?

maybe we're all the same
like how the socs and the greasers are still the same
beneath the err, grease and the shiny suits.
maybe we're all the same underneath these fronts and lifestyles.

and i can make days while you make alphabets!
I MAKE YOU AH! :D

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

stay gold

2007-01-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

and this is by far, my favourite picture of wentworth aka wenty

it's something about his gaze.

i swear he's looking back at me!!

wah lao.

if i had a son who was born looking so gorgeously god-like

i would name him a nicer name then wentworth.

pretty miller boy :D

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake

Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?

i need a heartdrop <3

orangebowl is the only stall that serves food that taste the same

food glorious food.

i shall go and watch PB1 again with my brother

cos its far better than sitting by the computer and sulking

at least in the black box, there's dear old wenty to ease my mind.

No one can find the rewind button, girl.

blink gape

2007-01-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

i'm a crippled animal ):
and my throat hurts!!!

i realised that i really look forward to sundays
cos of the new updates at post secrets.
it's like reading them, even just once.
makes life a little more interesting maybe?

eight shirts for eighty dollars!!!
HAHAHHAHA.

needed : one heart of stone

all the late nights, alcohol and pms is causing me to break out /:

Her lover was a sailor
She went and she waited there
The door locked from the outside
Lover never arrived so she sings there
Soft as a siren luring the ships off their course, how alarming

roses by the stairs

2007-01-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

guess what i found in classifieds!
looking for :
young, pleasant and SEX-looking waitresses
for an indian pub.
WAHAHHAHS.
sex looking?

too bad my scanner isn't working.

i wish it would stop raining.
STOP STOP STOP.

i do not want to show any emotion
or even express what i feel anymore.

according to dictionarydotcom
the word of the day is incarnadine

I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game'
Cause I need you

those three words

2007-01-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: December 25

Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words.
Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take.
You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

i need a job. BADLY! ):
OKAY HIRE ME!

excuse me, may i know where the louis?
HAHAHAHAHA!

we should all start wishing upon raindrops
then we'll have plenty of wishes to spare! :D

Put your head against my life
What do you hear
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year

great wall of china

2007-01-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

step one is in place.
even if it is temporary (:

i'm so glad to have finally pinpointed the problem
its a great relief
at least i know which way i'm headed
rather than just stumbling around aimlessly.

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

stagnant

2007-01-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

the uncertainty surrounding every tomorrow
just depresses me even if it could have been a good today.
i'm terribly reliant on external joys.

on a brighter note
today was a first!
my dog finally got coaxed into sitting in the car
and he was so funny about it :D
everybody should get pets!
cos at the end of a bad day
they just make things a little, if not a lot brighter (:

Where, where are the stars?
The one that we used to call ours
Can't imagine it now
We used to laugh till we fell down.
The secrets we had, are now in the past
From something to nothing, tell me

angel in the centrefold

2007-01-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

my mum specifically said that i looked like,
of all the animals in the entire animal kingdom
a TADPOLE in my new dress ):
pfffft.
i do not see any resemblance at all!!!!!

i lack creativity ):
after like pondering at the jewelry making shop for twenty minutes
all i picked up to work on only resulted in a pair of ear studs
but they're cutee :D

did anyone know that pink sang bananas in pyjamas song?!

It's win or lose not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name

maneater

2007-01-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

so what's that point of saying hi
if that's all you're gonna do?
once again,
after walking a half circle of good days
i start to question all of these again.

i've got this terrible knot in my shoulder
URGHHHHS.

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand

lipservice

2007-01-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

food for thought;
if you had to which one would you choose?

i've got diseased left hand nails
red, black and a toothpick does not work.

its ironic that i tell others to not swing between extremes
while being guilty of it myself
so how do you balance out the extremes.

and if everyone points their finger at someone who's "worse"
who is the worst?

Who would've guessed I'd have learned
To let the walls around me burn
Light up the hillside
My words, I ate them for so long and nothing changed
It was just the same

these scars run so deep

2007-01-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

me : i think this is damn pretty
wanxin : it's quite nice but it is literally quite bu san bu si!(not three not four)

yikes, if i could have one wish pretty pretty please
let me walk all night in such lovely stilts :D

How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember
All that we shared
Now we both have separate lives
From lovers to strangers, now alone
There's no one catching my fall
No one to hear my call
It's like I never loved you at all.

Now you're so far away
And I see our star is fading
One too many times
Guess it just got tired of waiting around.

ugly doll

2007-01-01T15:14:00.000+08:00

and sitting by the waterfront
waiting for the nonexistent sunrise
plus good company (:
and having mindless but settling conversations
just makes a pretty round up to 2006
and marks the start of a good year, hopefully.

2006 was filled to the brim with extremes of good and bad
but regardless of whatever
i'm determined to make it the end of all bad things
and start of all the goood (:

new year resolutions:
- get a new life, new priorities
- independence beckons
- no more of constants
- build upon everything good and make them better.

happy birthday jan (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!

It's an ordinary miracle.
The kind you find around you every single day
or maybe it's just seasonal like spring and May.
They're so many.

some pig

2006-12-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

i wish you would deal with your issues
instead of expecting me to do something about them.

i detest being a constant in this rush
because the thing about constants
is that on top of the stability and comfort it offers
there's the unappreciated and taken for granted parts.

charlotte's web was lighthearted and cheery
and the pig was mega cute
plus the girl and the boy :D

edit//
girlnextdoor
i demand you come back now and make me sane ):

Way too long I've tried to be
what I could never be
For too long you've rolled the dice
but you can't control me
I ain't talking 'bout romance
you may fiddle I may dance
Anyway it's just a game we play

raindrops on roses

2006-12-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

it's terribly cold.
i say brrr?

and i need to reconsider and rethink my life
to set it straight on this winding path
before the twists and turns
take me somewhere i don't wanna be.

mcron!
thankyou for almost offering me coasters
and for informing me of all the explicitness.
it was then that i realise
how terribly much i miss these not so little people from school
teetwelve ):

Your head lays down upon this car
But I hate you for what you are
And what I have become

kermit the frog

2006-12-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

and i'm the foolish tara.
"if you don't change your life, life has a way of changing you."

i wish there were more words
but not here, not now.
"but we both know that's not the truth"

i'm terribly sleep deprived.

You, you got me thinking it'll be alright.
You, you told me,
"Come and take a look inside."
You believed me in every single lie
But I, I failed you this time

the killing box

2006-12-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

this year, christmas is made up of
pre-christmas cooking party
delightful christmas eve lunch
and a christmas day party,
which was a toilet-papered love affair

now we know the proper uses of toilet paper
along with the best earlicking and ponyrides techniques.
and i make the bestest vodka ribena sprite (:

i'm suffering from serious PB withdrawal symptoms

And it feels like tonight
I can't believe I'm broken inside
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight
Tonight

sleigh ride

2006-12-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO
mrs claus is here to say merry christmas all! :D
on second thought,
i think mrs scofield would do, thank you very much.
i have terribly unhealthy obsessions (:

and its a sunny christmas morning,
perfect christmas weather for the sunny island
i hope it doesn't rain later on!

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire,
Jack Frost nipping on your nose,
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir,
And folks dressed up like Eskimos.

Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe,
Help to make the season bright.
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow,
Will find it hard to sleep tonight.

They know that Santa's on his way;
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh.
And every mother's child is going to spy,
To see if reindeer really know how to fly.

And so I'm offering this simple phrase,
To kids from one to ninety-two,
Although its been said many times, many ways,
A very Merry Christmas to you

bolshoi booze

2006-12-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

love is ...
- waiting and waiting somemore just so we can eat together
- picking through bits of roast chicken
- sharing half a tub of cadbury peppermint chocolate icecream
- not picking your favourite present 'cos someone else likes it more
- laughing at each other's clothes
- ta-paoing all the left over food

thankyou for the love girls (:
and we didnt even take a single photo
but sometimes even a photo is inadequate

and all i want for christmas, is michael scofield (:
cause you can take my breath away

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself I became someone else

scofield!

2006-12-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

I'm not a jealous woman. But I'm a careful one.
And for some reason, when I'm around you, I'm not careful
You don't have to be

even my mum is addicted to prison break (:
and wentworth miller is the epitome of yummy

weed

2006-12-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

and bit by bit everything that mattered just chips away
which is why i'm swearing by my new motto
time is best spent alone.

i think today is my last day of employment
looking for new job again.
girl was adorable today (:

and all i want for christmas this year
is exactly what i wished for last year
it does not feel like christmas at all
NOT AT ALL

He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

shiny shiny things

2006-12-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

the walk home was wet, chilly and suprisingly pleasant.
singapore is being flooded by the monsoon ):

withdraw into the dark damp corner
that everyone avoids.

i wonder what's wrong
but then i realise i don't really care
this is just life happening.

and as i promised, i'm slow walking off the carousel
it's like finally getting onto a delayed flight.

it's been a cheery long day, and i'm dead tired.
working the morning class tomorrow, FUG.

daisy duck in the foyer with the marinerer!

I could tell a million lies
and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger,
hits you right between the eyes

long and painful fight

2006-12-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

The turtle said, " i have eaten your tears, and this is why i know your misery.
But i must warn you.
If you cry, your life will always be sad."

THen the turtle opened his beak and out poured five, six, seven pearly eggs.
The eggs broke open and from them emerged seven birds,
who immediately began to chatter and sing.

I knew from their snow-white bellies and pretty voices
that they were magpies, birds of joy.
These birds bent their beaks to the pond and began to drink greedily.
And when i reached out my hand to capture one,
they all rose up, beat their black wings on my face
and flew into the air, laughing.

"Now you see," said the turtle, drifting back into the pond,
"Why it is useless to cry.
Your tears do not wash away your sorrows.
They feed someone else's joy.
And that is why you must learn to swallow your own tears."

- joyluck club

my dreams have soundtracks playing in the background
i distinctly singing somebody like you in my dreams
and then climbing down some tree /:
i'm queer

SLUT IN THE TRUCK!
i like the other tucker (:

i saw the first shooting star of my life that night
when i least expected it!
and cos it was so unexpected,
i wasn't quick enough at making a wish ):
so no wish upon a shooting star for me.
plus i caught some rainbow coloured clouds
they looked like a mysterious part of carebear land
cotton candy clouds! (:

lonely light of morning

2006-12-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

freedom at its sweetest (:
for a record, i don't look like a lobster!

Last chance for one last dance

byebye sunny island
i'll be back on sat (:

We're only taking turns holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand

And then again maybe you don't

i'm all yours

2006-12-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

this boy is mine! (:
you make my heart fluttterrr
like a little butter-
fly.

pesky lil' bugger : do you know what time it is?
me : errr -checks phone, 0315!
pesky lil' bugger: no, it's DONATION TIME!
me: .......

ps. pesky lil' bugger would be one of those fellas asking for donations along orchard road

You've begun to feel like home

final sentence

2006-12-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

#1. i want to go shopping
#2. i dreamt of you; it was a NIGHTMARE
#3. i've worked two days, and i'm sick of it already
#4. I AM DYING TO GO SHOPPING
#5. ulcer, please fcuking go away.
#6. i'm actually glad that i'm not going
#7. everything is falling back into/out of place
#8. some prata now please
#9. the best part is, i don't really care. not really
#10. I REALLY WANT TO GO SHOPPING, okay i shall write a shopping list now

I JUST SAW THE NORTH STAR!
okay no big deal, but its so errr SHINY (:

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right

faux pas

2006-12-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

boy wanted to make a happy cookie today!
THIS IS MY HAPPY COOKIE
so cutee (:
elfie; i'm so gonna do it again... YES

my ulcer is making the right side of my lip/cheek swell ):

look how much we've grown!

You always act so happy when I see you
You smile that way you take my hand and then
Introduce me to your latest lover
That's when I feel the walls start crashing in.

love actually ;

2006-12-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

first day of unwork SUCKED.
okay, LOUSY ):
so hopefully tomorrow will be a good first day of work.
AH WELL

and i feel pretty cut off from the rest of the world
work takes away your social life
gayass dancer questioned about my new found love for long bus rides
somehow, im beginning to appreciate the loneliness
and not having to wait up or slow down for anyone.
it's kinda addiktive (:

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

beyond the last bus

2006-12-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

r1 : the bus is moving so slowly!
r2 : maybe it has the monday blues!
r1 : stares- OMG! i'm wearing monday blue! (points to blue tee)

i'm officially starting work tmr at SIGLAP wtf.
soon i'll have the kachink kachink to support my high maintence splurges

You can be the sinner and I'll be the sin
I take what I want and it's easy to see
I got everything

(:

2006-12-04T01:38:00.000+08:00

this is love.
at first sight or after an awfully long time
it is love.
people who've made cj really really special.
of course, there're still more!
but this is just collage1.

flowers in the desert

2006-12-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

jump off the carousel with me
and maybe you can see
everything's meaningless

one more round and i'm off
wait for me r2.

be my baby

2006-12-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

we're a pathetic bunch of losers.

hello r2! i'm r1!
retardeds in saraca walk are lazing around in chairs!
r2's slug theory :
every girl who's not a slug has at least one slug
it's just a matter of finding it

as of today, i am out of frictional unemployment (:

What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

She sees herself in her Sunday dress
Humming simple melodies
She's known since she was only three

i blow kisses

2006-12-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

haunted by images
plagued by thoughts

i had icecream again today! (:

i'm not going to thailand anymore ):
and everyone is flying off
RAHHHH.
the people left in town, please ask me out!
this is probably god telling me that i have to get a job.

plan b; be a good snail

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

masquerade ;

2006-12-01T20:29:00.000+08:00

prom was completly unrelated to its theme
but pretty fun nevertheless!
photos photos photos
okay that's about it.

speaking of masquerade
i really hate it when people have such thick masks
that conceal every strand of their true self
that makes living quite pointless isn't it?
at the end of the day, who's the person behind the mask?

put on your dancing shoes
and dance till your sorrows disappear
cos in the dim flashing lights
with the music vibrating in your ear drums
and blending with your heartbeat
the world seems a little brighter.

je suis si intelligent!
je t'aime (:

maybe i'm not much better

Your head lays down upon this car
But I hate you for what you are
And what I have become
Fire burns within your lungs
So light yourself another smoke
And recreate what you call home

sexy black

2006-11-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

i've got the loveliest heels ever
and i can't wait to go for prom.
WHY DO I SOUND LIKE AN AIRHEAD!
but okay lah, they're really lovely
and i love them alot ( sounds so chesssy )

I'm bringing sexy BLACK (:

one red balloon

2006-11-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

neoprints are a complete waste of money
but we enjoy them anyway (:
girl's day out = sore feet, shophopping and wild moments!
it's been awfully terribly long.

ripped this from catalog
one angry beaver's guide to playing fair

#1 never ever backstab a friend. always wait till you've gotten all your CDs back
#2 always pick on someone your own size. physically handicapped people count
#3 never stoop to your enemy's level. it's bad for your back
#4 always take the high road. you'll have a better aim from there
#5 never lie. the truth hurts much more
#6 cheating is wrong. finding a loophole is genius
#7 sticks and stones may break their bones, but mindgames awlays fcuk them
#8 there's a thin line between love and hate. always pick opponents who can't tell the difference
#9 always keep your conscience clear. they have medication for this sort of thing
#10 what goes around comes around. remember to duck

libing's idea of emo :
wear the BOSTON shirt from fox
(it's black, with the shape of boston and words BOSTON)
and sing boston.

realisation will only make the recovery quicker

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist

micro brain

2006-11-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

i saw four snails (HUGE ONES) travelling on the road
one rainy night!
attending the funeral of one other snail!

i cut the strings today

dance like no one's looking
cos no one's gonna remember you tomorrow anyway

the tehpeng is keeping me up
it's like feeling sleepy and awake at the same time
groggy alertness, so forgive the randomness
paradoxical; yay!

girls day out later on!
it's been awhile (:

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday
heard it somewhere
can't remember where.
so cute larrrs

the world outside leaves me behind by myself
there's no mercy for those who hold on

new york new york

2006-11-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

i like my purplee nails (:
DIY manicure beneath a trembling jenga tower
i would say it's a job well done.

if it hasn't, it's really not about to happen.

it's depressing how selfish we've all become
who would have ever expected this sort of ending
two words lah, forget it.

and i hate to admit this
but maybe everyone else is right.

such striking similiarities.
tv has its ill effects
maybe its best to stick to reading harrypotter
ALL OVER AGAIN ((:

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

sticky situation

2006-11-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

today i fufilled my plans of spending-time-alone
and after one full 24 hours, im sick of being at home.
PWOARR.
but! i plucked my eyebrows, epilated the legs(AGAIN!)
read harry potter, watched 10 mins of harry potter
and then picked out my dusty vcd set to watch (:

and i feel terribly uneasy
it's almost as though all my senses have picked up signs of danger

AND ERRBODY!
im going to thaiiilaaannnd!
and there i will unleash my super shopping powers!!! :D

my dress is maroon ):
it's supposed to be wine red!
i'm terribly annoyed, but it's a pretty maroon so it isn't so bad.
I WANT TO BE THE GIRL IN THE RED DRESS! ):

We keep ourselves a mystery
But we provide, provide the clues

one liners

2006-11-20T12:49:00.000+08:00

Oh baby, baby it's a wild world,
It's hard to get by just upon a smile,
Oh baby, baby it's a wild world,
And I always remember you like a child, girl

the sky is gloomy ):
i dont like anticipating the rain
there's always a tinge of sadness involved
but when the rain pours
and you're all warm and cozy (:
i roveee.

so far, it's been shopping, lunches and dinners
movie-ing and BORED games!
hehhh :D

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

<3 caleb!

2006-11-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

the covenant is hot
cos NAMELESS GUYS (aka tyler)
and calebb :D :D :D make it so worth the money!
i cant find a good shot of caleb ):
blue cotton
pink lace.
HAHAHA!

thank you MOE for twelve years of subsidised education
because education is a merit good
and thank you tax payers for supporting me.
as of today, i'm free.

thank you my favourite tehpeng girlnextdoor (:

lit, history and bio people STAY STRONG!
dont give in, dont give up.
almost there, you're almost there (:

You're a dead fit
But my wit won't allow it
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

curse of the curves

2006-11-12T19:27:00.000+08:00

this is what i've been doing at home.
racing cars ):
DIE DIE DIE

It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

without granting innocence

2006-11-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

boiling point
one more time, HAHH
i swear i'll explode in your face.
honey, you're tiptoeing at the edge
brace yourself for the landing

i think cambridge is pretty serious about bleeding me dry.
they're just about to drain the last ounce of humanity in me
unleash the beast!
- tell tale signs of a nervous breakdown wanna-be

Between the lines of fear and blame

it's been so long.

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

photobooth

2006-11-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

the bag is so annoyingly adorable! (:
say AHHHH!!
so cute laaaa
NO MORE MATHS FOR THE REST OF MY EFFING LIFE!
this is a cause for celebration (:
NO MORE NO MORE MATHS!!
i need to play more mindsweeper!
or actually just any games that will take my mind off exams /:
and thank you for letting me win
(unintentionally of course, seeing how im so brilliant)

I am lighting matches for the rescue
Some are candles, some are fuses
Acting on my best behavior
Switching over every breaker

familiar stranger

2006-11-09T11:13:00.000+08:00

two down! ten thousand more to go ):
okay, after today, that's THREE DOWN!
maths paper 2 in another 3 hours!
i cannot emphasise just how much i want A levels to be OVER
it's making me utterly miserable.

i look like hurricane katrina just blew over my face
fluffy hair, open pores and puffy eyes
i need to sleep

I WANT A CAR, A SMALL RED/YELLOW CAR!
I DEMAND THAT YOU BUY ME A CAR HUANGWANXIN!!!

one two three four ;

2006-11-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

reading, or more like oogling some blogs
has left me feeling pretty disgruntled and fat
ugly fart ):

anyway, its 758, meaning i have 2 minutes to get back
no, get down to work.
i just realised that maths is on tuesday
okay i didnt just realise but i just double-realised that!
so that makes maths, geog, maths for next week ):
HOW!

I MUST :
- read ALL of phy geog tonight
- complete paper 1 nov 03 for the second time
( it's not because im a kiasu worm,
it's simply cos im too stupid to get it the first time round)

my brains can only fill up a cup.
and they must be as smooth as a baby's rear end
with no forms of cracks and fractures.
that makes me pretty stupid. HURRAY!

KEVIN, it's night!
choose either one :
1) started on chem - okay, complete it.
2) yet to start on chem - get your fat lazy arse down to chem, or i'll curse you to flunk it.

its 803, i've wasted three minutes. BYE

taking flight

2006-11-04T12:35:00.000+08:00

i cooked my own lunch today!
BUT IT IS SOGGY ):
i was supposed to soak the noodles for 7-8 mins
buttt i got distracted by the net and all its wonders
so WHAM! 20 minutes went by.
OH WELL.
hehh, i shall start a soggy noodles trend!

i dont believe that anything can be done about this now
it's too late, way too late.

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide

three's a crowd

2006-11-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

and i don't know and i honestly don't care
not anymore.
it's on days like these that i doubt mankind
for all the things we appear to be
we are actually nothing more than decomposing organic matter
(SOME FAMOUS PERSON SAID THAT! i think)
i can't help but feel the let down
two years, all for this?

the thought of it disgusts me
skanky with a capital S

i suppose it's right in a sense that
once you've seen it all, done it all
nothing else comes as a surprise anymore does it?
the most absurb nonsense becomes the norm.
and slowly, we learn not to bother.

this isn't exactly my fault you know

gp was like fine.
just fine, i dont know how fine is fine
but it's one down (:

my enemy's enemy is my friend
EEEYER, BEST FRIEND ALERT!
note the sacarsm*

Over the earth and under the sky
Too much cold and too much rain
Too much heartache to explain

jai guru deva

2006-11-01T01:07:00.000+08:00

and the puppet jerks
dancing, prancing upon the stage of life.
and time comes to a standstill
as if to watch the puppet sing its joyful song
suddenly the voices fade
and the puppet falls into deep slumber again.

it lived a little, and then died a little again.

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box

HAPPY HALLOWEEEN!

NO!

2006-10-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO
NONONONONONONONONONONONO

wallflower

2006-10-29T11:04:00.000+08:00

four days left
i should be afraid, very afraid.

cow girls don't have small heads.

Start flames to burn out
Start thinking out loud
Give me an ending
Then we'll stop pretending
If we stop pretending, we know where we're heading
'cause I said stop but I'm still spinning
They've said I've lost but I'm still winning
Burn quick and stand still
Speak slow to get though these words I couldn't say to you
I crack concrete falling down for you

tenderness survives

2006-10-28T12:22:00.000+08:00

i'm completely capable of wasting an entire evening AND night
by stoning, talking, and talking somemore.

don't eat go back grass
WAHAHHAS!
Qn: who's the king of all the stationery?
Ans: the ruler!

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

we're sometimes too quick to judge
and then not change our opinions after the judgement sets in
but truth is, who are we to judge others
based on our little knowlege (imperfect knowledge in monopoly!)
what right do we have?

A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

tongue tied

2006-10-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

let the past pass us by
spin around in circles
while the clock ticks away
we'll all be okay, someday.

i like the feeling of laughing till you can't breathe
choking on your own air
and being more happy than you've been in an awfully long time

HEY YOU!
run away with me pretty pretty please
to a far far away place with no boys
and there we'll find our peace (:

sometimes the temptation of running away
just overwhealms your entire being.

If you wanna be happy
For the rest of your life,
Never make a pretty woman your wife,
So from my personal point of view,
Get an ugly girl to marry you.

A pretty woman makes her husband look small
And very often causes his downfall.
As soon as he marries her
Then she starts to do
The things that will break his heart.
But if you make an ugly woman your wife,
You'll be happy for the rest of your life,
An ugly woman cooks her meals on time,
She'll always give you peace of mind.

Don't let your friends say
You have no taste,
Go ahead and marry anyway,
Though her face is ugly,
Her eyes don't match,
Take it from me she's a better catch.

Say man.
Hey baby.
Saw your wife the other day.
Yeah?
Yeah, she's ugly.
Yeah, she's ugly but she sure can cook.
Yeah? Okay.

waahhahahs!
brainwash everyone to think the same!
say NO to stereotyped blonde dolls!

wage your war

2006-10-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

and the way it appears
it's only natural for anyone
to interpret it the wrong way
please, it's just not what it seems.

and everytime that thought flashes in my head
guilt just consumes me
and its not like the intended recipient will ever read this
but sorry anyway
i'm a bitch la, damnnit.

i really should be studying.

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too

one way street

2006-10-25T01:43:00.000+08:00

t o c k s ! says:
we're such weird pple
ant ; says:
HAHAHA
ant ; says:
i think it's normal ?
t o c k s ! says:
we're so weird that it's normal?
-
ant ; says:
but the whole point of a comfort zone, is to get comfortable!
-
this is exactly why i love you (:
for never judging when i want revenge
for listening to me complain about the same things
OVER AND OVER AGAIN
and for being stuck in the same comfort zone

straightjacket feeling

2006-10-24T14:25:00.000+08:00

i just got up at 1
from a fantastic 12.5 hours sleep
12.5 hours HAH! beat that (:
maybe that will decrease the fat hormones
by another errr 15% ! (:

it's raining outside
i like watching the rain

I AM SO DELUDED
and even though no one knows
I AM SO EMBARRASSED ):
damnn, five hours of joy
and realisation of the blatant truth.

I used to run in circles going nowhere fast.
I'd take one step forward and a two steps back.
Couldn't walk a straight line, even if I wanted to.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you.

exodus

2006-10-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

little mermaid is like a form of global propaganda
if there's even such thing anyway.
trying to brainwash us to think that we're in the best place that we can be
and that being human makes us very blessed.
okay, maybe we are.

i suppose its the small things that we overlook
and brush aside that really melt your heart.

in LLB's words
it's like finding something pretty in a jar of lies

There on the pavement, underneath the yellow moon
I think of you and just how easily we bruise
A folded address in my pocket, I have stopped
Trying to believe for you that the bottom didn't drop

; thank you

2006-10-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around.
We walked side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels.
My angel guide stopped in front of the first section
and said, "This is the Receiving Section.
Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received."
I looked around in this area,
and it was terribly busy with so many angels sorting out petitions
written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from people all over the world.
Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section.

The angel then said to me, "This is the Packaging and Delivery Section.
Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed
and delivered to the living persons who asked for them."
I noticed again how busy it was there.
There were many angels working hard at that station,
since so many blessings had been requested
and were being packaged for delivery to Earth.

Finally at the farthest end of the long corridor
we stopped at the door of a very small station.
To my great surprise, only one angel was seated there, idly doing nothing.
"This is the Acknowledgment Section," my angel friend quietly admitted to me. He seemed embarrassed "How is it that? There's no work going on here?" I asked.
"So sad," the angel sighed.
"After people receive the blessings that they asked for,
very few send back acknowledgments.

"How does one acknowledge God's blessings?" I asked.
"Simple," the angel answered.
"Just say, "Thank you, Lord."
"What blessings should they acknowledge?" I asked.
"If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back,
a roof overhead and a place to sleep ...
you are richer than 75% of this world.
"If you have money in the bank, in your wallet,
and spare change in a dish, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.
And if you get this on your own computer,
you are part of the 1% in the world who has that opportunity."
Also ...

"If you woke up this morning with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the many who will not even survive this day.
"If you have never experienced the fear in battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 700 million people in the world.
"f you can attend a church meeting without the fear of harassment,
arrest, torture or death, you are envied by,
and more blessed than, three billion people in the world.
"If your parents are still alive and still married, you are very rare.
If you can hold your head up and smile, you are not the norm,
you are unique to all those in doubt and despair."

2006-10-22T14:03:00.000+08:00

IT'S RAINING!!!
FINALLY, SAY NO TO HAZE! :D
everyone's oblivious to the obvious.
it's raining! (:

wings of emotion

2006-10-22T13:04:00.000+08:00

Because that's what people do.
They leap, and hope to God they can fly,
because otherwise you just drop like a rock,
wondering the whole way down, why in the hell did I jump

well i sure hope god has a pair of wings ready for me
cos i'm definitely leaping now
grabbing hold on to chances that will not come by a second time
and giving life my best shot

in everyone's life story
there's always this untold chapter
of sad stories and memories
that we try to forget.
but ultimately, we always find our happily ever after.
it's just a matter of when isn't it?

laws of nature

2006-10-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

today i'm grateful for ants and bings

whose little words, make my day (:

my sister's way of expressing her undying devotion for me

Cause I built you a home in my heart,
With rotten wood, and it decayed from the start.

That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

lips of an angel

2006-10-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

replay please;
i need a moment of mindless camwhoring
and mindblowing fun

of head versus heart

2006-10-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

im blogging in the school library
when im supposed to be mugging up to 12 hours a day
like RWARR ):
so unproductive bleargghs.

here's to remind you today :
don't fall back, move on

You're so cute when you're slurring your speech,
But they're closing the bar and they want us to leave.

slander and double speak

2006-10-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

you don't know what you want till you know what you don't
and i know what i don't
so i suppose that settles it.

my progress is only about as fast as a slow moving vehicle
i need a breather ):
i feel like taking black and white photos
like photobooth photos!
or top model - the ugly side of modelling sort of shots
imagine a world without colours
so sad, yet so pretty.

Cup your mouth to compress the sound,
skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town.
And everything that I said was true
as the flashes blinded us in the photobooth.

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

unglam.

2006-10-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

i am tired
i want to sleep
i want to eat.
this is a completely redundant post

" natalie, you have a high hormonal level "
" yes, that one also "
that one = yours truly

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
Let it die
I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too

hard habit to break

2006-10-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

i desperately would love to upload a whole bucket of photos
sadly, blogger refuses to cooperate
i've only managed to upload a max of 2 photos
after like 2935890348 tries
so i give up.
another day, when im free-er
i will make a collage (:

anyway, please send me photos everyone!
especially the teetwelvers.

i dont like the way i blog these days,
it's so conversational.
BLEARGHHHS.

3 weeks till the beginning of the end
and im trying to give the last lap my best shot.
best shot, and im free for seven months
seems like a pretty good deal

plead the fleeting moment to remain;
read it in MAN AND WIFE (hwing your book is inspiring lah!)
where it was used to describe photographs.
the act of capturing a moment in time
we don't remember days, we remember moments.
maybe thats why everyone's a camwhore these days.

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

special mention to the favourite song of the moment
who's offically made it to the top25 most played song (:
i like.

i believe in you

2006-10-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK! :D
introducing guest bloggers : frans and hun!!!

Its such a sad day! So many friends to keep so little time! = (
why does time pass so fast when u are at the best point of ur life?
So many fond memories to keep which we hope will stay as reality!
Today we graduate and complete another chapter of our life.
Just wanna say that all the little angels sent to me by God
which i call friends will always be close to my heart.
Thank you all who i have happily spent my two years with.
Good luck to u guys and hope we nv forget each other.
xoxo HUN !

HELLO WORLD. As everybody knows, today's an emo day.
It really saddens me to know that the 2 years I've spent in CJ is coming to a close.
Looking back, there were things I wished I didn't do and regretted doing.
But what's done is done, and there's no point in regretting and so life goes on.
Sorry to anyone I've offended!
I think happiness is, most of the time, a state of mind
and you choose whether you want to be happy.
So, for now at least, let's talk about HAPPY EVENTS!

As most of you have already known,
because of the public announcement made,
today was also MARK P.'S BIRTHDAY!
The earlier part of the day was spent giving Mark what he deserves;
a beating, make-up and cake on his face.
Details can be SEEN in the many pictures and videos taken during this ritual.
ASK ME FOR PICTURES!
The later part of the day was spent surprising Mark at his house.
I would like to think that it was a success and I really hope he liked it!

12 years and running buddy, not gonna let you off that easy know.
Hope you enjoyed your special day today.
Of course, made special by your special friends.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MARK P!
Ok bye.
-SNARF

you know, i really will miss cj.
more of the people rather than the school itself
but nonetheless, noodle king and memorable memories (HAHA!)
will not be forgotten.
i've found some of the most special little people in cj
we may go our seperate ways
but like scars, these memories and people will always be there
and there's this special place in my heart reserved for them
lovely people (:
im very blessed indeed.

it's never easy to find friends
that you're completely comfortable with
in a way that you dont hold back any thoughts or feelings
such that you can just sit together without saying anything
and yet feeling completely at ease.
when a simple smile speaks endless words.
and in two years, i've found more than one.
friends that you want to spend your entire life with.
gosh, EMO OVERLOAD.

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe In you

footsteps

2006-10-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

today, we fought for the remnants of the kway teow
we had to split it by four bowls
just so we could all have our last taste of kwayteowdry ):
noodle king (:

i took two long walks to the grandstand
sat there, and stoned.
the trees look pretty pretty swaying
i'll miss the grandstand and the breeze.

the routine things we'll miss.
like dropping our bags at the canteen everyday
hello-ing to familiar faces
dashing down to town at six for dinner
and getting back just in time for night study
being early for every single geog lecture

so there wont another last official school day anymore
cj has left me with many new experiences
and even more friends that i hold close to my heart
two years, is just a mere moment in our lives
but it is a treasured moment,
one that we will think back on when society is done screwing us over
we'll think about days when we were younger, and more real.
when we had true friends to bum around with.

i'm done with emo-ing.

Being without you
Is all a big mistake
Instead of getting any easier
Its the hardest thing to take
Im addicted to you
Youre a hard habit to break

true or false

2006-10-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

im becoming an introvert
mark :
why now u so boring one
never talk abt anything one
haiz
last time talk so much
now like rag doll

i'm losing myself little by little
talking is becoming more of a chore
there's just nothing to say anymore.
i just want everything to be over
and to find myself again.

antecendents

2006-10-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

http://community.livejournal.com/polaroide/

i like ferris wheels
they remind me of popcorn, candyfloss
the scent of lingering romance and growing pains in the air
it's like almost being there.
they speak of happy days (:

today is the beginning of the end.
no time to think back on the past two years
but i certainly enjoyed every moment of it.

stay awake with the sound of my voice
i'm restless from the silence in the air
i want to be somewhere i can see the roads
a place where everytime you breathe a wish comes true
i want to be where love is real
and memories of distant days come to life again

venus

2006-10-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

quoting from my compre
"still the findings are disturbing.
to accept that how we look matters,
when we have so little control over our appearance,
is difficult."

the mirror is a product of man's vanity
merely skindeep but
mirrors allow us to skim the surface of our existence
but apparently,the need to perfect our gene pool
has made us the superficial beings that we are today.
so maybe superficiality is inbuilt.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

my love is vengeance

2006-10-07T17:19:00.000+08:00

slowly our paths diverge
i am sailing like a little boat!

mooncake day bbq later on
my mum invited like the entire kampong laa.
i wonder what mid autumn festival would be like
if we cant even see the full moon
i want to drink beer and get drunk (:

You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I'm tired of running, lets walk for a minute

all my teeth hurt today
especially the molars ):
i think ive got some gum disease
ouchh.

the competition was never fair

the moon hung over soho and I counted 16 stars
I pointed at the brightest one and said now that one's ours

fly 'em out to spain

2006-10-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

i just formulated my after a levels to-do list :

- learn how to bake yummylicious deserts (:
- buy pretty pretty charms and make accessories for myself! (and friends)
- make a paper mache piggybank
- dye the ends of my hair dark red (in my imagination, it looks good)

read this on letterstolovers :

tonight ralf and i went out to chinese food.
when the meal was over and we opened our fortune cookies,
he read his, then looked up at me.
i asked him what it said.
he replied, "marry the girl sitting across from you."
it really said you have a bright future.

so sweeet.

today is take a chill pill day at home! :D
so im just slacking.
S.L.A.C.K.

denial is like poisoned wine
you drink in its sweetness
and the lingering aftertaste on your tongue
but before you know it
the poison starts churning in your stomach
and wham, you're dead.

apparently, we thought wrong.

the opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

knackered.

2006-10-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

incoherent thoughts are racing cars around my head :

jade is sucha mega bitch
LISTEN TO YOUR MAMAA ( translated please )
you always seem to understand, you know how i am.
geog homework ; untouched
i suck at maths
the haze is choking me
i like my weekend wallpaper; it's the one thing that keeps me going
and one by one, they were gone.
little man in my head, quit hammering at the walls
MY HEAD EFFING HURTS
free hugs please
incapable of putting it in words anymore.

when it comes undone, you're left with no one.
- man and boy

balancing act

2006-09-30T21:36:00.000+08:00

basically, that's how life has been
pools of sorrow and waves of joy.
there's something seductive about red stilettos
sex appeal ; 10

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes

hold on to this kite

2006-09-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

you know, it's complicated.
my fuse is so short these days
that i get annoyed so easily
but thank god for the happy people

1. i'm amused by how bad you are at guessing, but it's like you really understand
2. you make me wanna stick around for good
3. every little word and action just makes my heart swell with joy
4. you're so clumsy its adorable
5. your presence on bad days contradicts your words
6. you're the blank canvas that i paint my feelings on
7. you'll always be there, and i thank god for that.

How could this be done
Your such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly way

caress my soul

2006-09-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute

i have no idea i survived a day like this one
its 1212pm
finally, happy new day

bad things come in threes
crummyness crankiness and grumpyness
together in a single day
along with irritating voices
and bitchy fights
all in a tensed atmosphere
i would like to runaway

a haircut will make all this better
actually all i need now is a satisfying long phone chat
and music blasting in the speakers

i am capable of intellectual nonsense
pants:
i want to forget
even though i'm kinda fine
pantsless:
hahahas forget comes when you forget to think about it lah
stop thinking about forgetting
thinking about forgetting wont help you to forget

the girl at the corner bench would like to call the police

How come everytime you come around
My London, London bridge, wanna go down

vibrant darkness

2006-09-27T00:11:00.000+08:00

and your words stung like tears on a fresh wound
but you know i'll take them in anyway.
i suppose people do change and i'll accept you pointing it out
it might just be a wakeup call
but do know that whatever you claimed it to be
is not something i delibrately put myself through
i somewhat appreciate this though
it's never easy to tell the painful truth to a friend.

tension's on high alert! ):

a palm tree costs $12.60
you make me laugh :D
just stop singing that song please.
hahahs!

it was so sadly funny.

stand in line for days and nights
making up for lost time

galaxy of insanity

2006-09-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

my dad looked into my room
and thought that i was the sleeping person
and that the person he waved to was my friend
err actually, it is me.
hahahs!

i've accomplished my personal mission impossible
i read a slash fic and actually enjoyed it
too sweet, SUGAR OVERLOAD

some words just tug at your heartstrings
and refuse to let go
i dont know if i should laugh or cry
somehow im beginning to understand the turmoil that draco must have felt
torn between lovers and enemies, YEOWCH.

i need to know about the cat.

Something the heart must have to cherish,
Must love and joy and sorrow learn;
Something with passion clasp, or perish
And in itself to ashes burn.

demented

2006-09-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

shoutout to ELFIE :
you have more than my heart too.
im not there enough
but you know, happiness is just a phonecall away! :D

holland v (:
i love icecream and waffles
and i want to play more JI KO PAH!
im deprived of childhood games ):
i suppose the best part of getting high
is that you can do whatever you want to without being plagued by a sense of guilt.
singing at the top of our lungs at the busstop
when the clock ticks past twelve
is just, happying (:

the words just stay jumbled up in my head
desperate to be stringed into sentences
but somehow, they just get increasinly tangled
and the knotted words just begin to occupy more brainspace
I MISS YOU
mj session! :D
okay i seriously suck at the game
but ehhh, I SENT OUT WARNINGS!
dont blame me for being a handbrake.

this is depressing
today is sunday night, 11.07pm
as of tomorrow my life ends.
no more mopping around i shall get started.
i hate regrets, and im not giving myself a chance to regret
i will do well for A levels.

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

halfhearted

2006-09-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

If I surrender to this feeling
Maybe all the aches and pains will go
And I can close my eyes
Never again to have them open
Until I bleed out all I've been
But I don't want to be alone no more

Empty fields move me so much more
Than rooms filled up with friends
The way the trees look dead reminds me
That there's more to life than living
Maybe giving up's not bad
But part of letting go of you

Take this razor, sign your name accross my wrist
So everyone will know who left me like this
Sew me up, my scars run deep
A reminder not to forget the times that we've had

woohooo
sadistically
i like this emo song, it's so sadistic (:
bitch - so classic.
i like your emo song
it's schweet
i'll bring you out soon (:

romeo is bleeding

2006-09-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

i am a money eating monster machine!
RWARRRR
its okay, i loveee to splurge and spend money on stupid things
that make me happeeee :D
overproductive shopping spree today and i blew, a lot of money ):
im currently in bop deficit = no more eating and more shopping
OVERPRODUCTIVE ((:

my brain is a maze
i cant find my way out
it's like living in a daze
yay rhymes
feelings i cant comprehend
forbidden thoughts
it's like the apple tree in the garden of eden

FUN FACT :
humans share 98.5% of DNA with chimpanzees
75% with dogs
50% with fruit flies
and 33% daffodils!!
HOHOHOHO!
1/3 of me is made up of daffodils!
so technically its the 1.5% of DNA that makes us humans
and not chimps!
wooolala
this is the knowledge you get from watching excessive teevee
namely discovery channel (:

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal what we think how we feel
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?

so kiss me goodbye

2006-09-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

decreased brain activity by the minute
im tired, and i like feeling tired (:
it makes me feel like ive had hellalot of fun the entire day
such that im emotionally and physically drained.
okay i did have fun chillin' :D

dig out my brains and gorge out my heart
i have full intention of enjoying postprelims
with no traces of guilt and other emotionally downturning feelings.

every moment spent away from her is like the cold blistering winter
where the sun is waiting for the first flower to bloom
that must be the sweetest thing i've heard in an awfully long time
and it's not even scripted
like, wow.

I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

we are dreaming

2006-09-21T10:37:00.000+08:00

im attempting to squeeze in as many people as possible
into the postprelims activities
yummy dose of the liquidkitchen last night :D
good company, nice medicine drink /:
and doyouneedhelp plus canihaveamcspicydouble moments
retail therapy works. period.
its the joy of careless splurging that brings about an adrenaline rush

im plagued by bouts of depression
postexam depression maybe?
maybe its the maybe
how can i be genuinely smiling and feel all knotted up inside

i hate the tinge of smoke in my clothes, my hair
and IN MY AIR !
HAH it rhymes (:

Through our joy, through our pain
We can move worlds again
Take my hand, dance with me

2006-09-19T16:54:00.000+08:00

remember me

2006-09-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

my childhood memories : D

destiny

2006-09-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

more mindless fillups please.

I have read a book before
I have ran more than 2 miles without stopping
I have been to Canada
I have been on some sort of sports team
I have watched cartoons for hours before
I have tripped UP the stairs
I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs
I have been snowboarding/skiing
I have played ping pong
I swam in the ocean
I have been on a whale watch
I have seen fireworks
I have seen a shooting star
I have seen a meteor shower
I have almost drowned
I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear
I have listened to one cd over & over & over again
I have had stitch(es)
I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
I have stayed up til 6am doing homework/projects
I currently have a job
I have been ice skating
I have been rollerblading
I have fallen flat on my face
I have tripped over my own two feet
I have been in a fist fight
I have played videogames/com for more than 3 hours straight
I have watched The Power Rangers before
I have played truth or dare
I have already had my 16th birthday
I have already had my 17th birthday
I've called someone stupid. And i meant it.
I've been in a verbal argument
I've cried in school
I've played basketball on a team
I've sung in a choir
I've danced in a group
I've done cheerleading on a team
I've swam on a team
I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life
I've bungee jumped
I've climbed a rock wall before
I've lost more than $20
I've called myself an idiot
I've called someone else an idiot
I've cried myself to sleep
I've had (or have) pets
I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
I've owned a Britney Spears cd
I've owned an N*Sync cd
I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
Ive mooned someone
I've sworn at someone in authority
I've been in the schoolnewspaper/insights
I've been on TV
I've eaten sushi
I've been on the other side of a waterfall
I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies
I've watched all the Harry Potter movies
I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once
I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica
I've watched Looney Tunes before
I've been stuffed into a locker
I've been called a geek
I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade
I've not studied at all for a test and aced it
I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist
I've written poetry
I've been arrested
I've been attracted to someone much older than me
I've been tickled till I've cried
I've tickled someone else until they cried
I've had / have siblings
I've been to a rock concert
I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
I've been in a play
I've cried in front of my friends
I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
I've freaked out over a sports game
I've vomited in public
I've washed someone elses vomit
I've ran away
Ive had a stalker
I've had a fight with someone on text
I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
I've been on a car accident
I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me
I've personally seen something die
I've been confronted by a police officer but got away
I've lost someone who meant the world to me
I've had crashed a party
I've been a member of a school office
I've been suspended

being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up
these are the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right

cartoon heroes

2006-09-17T18:49:00.000+08:00

i am devastated!!
i've lost my dearest companion ):
it is GONE
after being hand in hand for the past many many papers
it is now GONE
where is my chewable pen!! ):
with my lion sticker! RWARRR
come home soon blackg2 ):
for those who dont understand why i'm making sucha big fuss over a pen
it is simply due to the fact that i am the sort of person
who uses a single pen for everything
work, DOODLING, writting letters, and CHEWING
sighh, this is one great loss

i'm running circles round my head honestly
physical geog paper tomorrow
im no where near completing anything
BUT THEN AGAIN
i happily drew up a shopping list while reading up on tropical soils
BLEARGGHH
that goes to show that i am OHSOWORRIED about my future
to hell with prelims

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

hearthrob

2006-09-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

i cant decide if maths paper 1 was good or bad
half good half bad
its better to not take a stand.

my head is throbbing
heavy from the workload ):
maths is just BAD for the brains!

I need you like mercy from heaven' gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

rhythms and blues

2006-09-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

you know i cant remember who said this
the only thing that is constant is change
changes will always happen

i suppose some things are better off unexplained
we will always see our own side of the story
and fail to understand the flip side of the coin
in that way, life is sad

maths tomorrow, i can't wait to get it over and done with
even if im gonna fail
at least that's another paper down
i'm too tired to think
slow traffic ahead.

If you believe in magic, come along with me
We'll dance until morning 'til there's just you and me

how's yer ma!

2006-09-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

so we broke the record
fighting, for the first time.
fcuk you
i thought that you above anyone else would understand.
apparently i thought wrong
why are you pushing me to something i'm not ready for
call me weak, but i need my time
and i will not live in denial.

x marks the spot

2006-09-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

so i believed that i could deal
and that i would be okay
apparently i overestimated myself
cos i am not okay, not at all.
i made promises that things will be okay
that no friendships will be harmed
and that everything will be the way it was
i'm sorry, that's one promise i feel that i am incapable of keeping

and yet, i fear that history repeat itself
so fearful that i'm lost
in this jungle where the human hearts dangle on vines
i'm completely lost, bewildered.

time heals all wounds,
so it just takes time.
but in the meantime, what?

maybe i could just disappear.
and see, this time it's entirely my own fault
i'm a fucktard.

i studied labour market and market failure
from 1030 -530.
thats seven hours, hahh.
two topics, screw econs.

hahahha, this cheered me up a little.

Now I sit me down to study
I pray the Lord I won't go nutty
And if I fail to learn this junk
I pray the Lord that I won't flunk

But if I do, don't pity me at all
Just lay my bones down in the study hall
Tell my teacher I've done my best
Then pile my books upon my chest

Now I lay me down to rest
I pray I'll pass tomorrow's test
If I should die before I wake
That's one less test I'll have to take.

take heart sweet heart

2006-09-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

geography was okay
i should be worried for everything else though,
considering how i devoted the entire week to that single paper
that is as of now, o-v-e-r
watching top model always gives me the urge to strut around
and to pretend that i'm wearing something dressy
instead of that tatty ratty big shirt (:

i noticed this embrassingly HUGE grammatical error in my previous post
i shall not correct it.

i also notice that i'm the only one that still blogs everyday
worrying, indeed.

but when you're coasting along and nobody's trying too hard
you can turn around and like where you are

fairydust

2006-09-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

after catching parts of 13goingon30
for yes, the first time yesterday
i must say that its saddening how as humans,
we try to grow up so quickly
and then feel like reversing time again to where we cannot go
everytime i see some prepubescent girls in town
decked out in full gear - heels, skimpy tops, mini skirts
and looking like they experimented with their mum's makeup collection
part of me wonders if they will regret it one day,
for rushing ahead and throwing themselves deep into adulthood
when they could be having kiddier fun ):
i suppose its a phase, there was probably a point of time
where i too rushed to grow up
luckily i stopped in time
that probably explains my childish demeanour now
i still wish i was sixteen, so young
as compared to the seventeen going on eighteen part ):
apparently im not the only one who wishes to use the time machine.
i think when you're old, you wish to be young
but when you're young you can't wait to grow up
completely reflective of human nature - what we have is never good enough

im starting to enjoy being alone
solitary comforts me
it allows me to think what i want to
believe in all i want to
and see what i want to
basically, it allows me to be selfish and get wrapped up in my own world
it's like dreaming, no one can hold you back.
i suppose the hard part is when you get chucked back into reality
for now, i'll rather not dread about what will happen
when im forced to face up to the real world

but god knows, if i could turn back time
there's only one thing i would do
live life on the fast lane
and never allow what ifs to happen
never.

one down, three to go
gosh, how i wish everyone was right.

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

you'll always be there

2006-09-09T12:09:00.000+08:00

i've decided to dedicate a post to sir funnybone
whose antics ensure a never boring day in class
and whose wiseness below all that nonsense hair products,
dense canopy growth and dimples
have made life bearable, in strange ways (:
cheers to being 18 wong mcron
next time we dont need to sneak around if we want to watch m18 shows anymore
unlike what we did for the gigolo show :D
and like i said, if you don't get off the shelf
i'll push you. remember to visit!
happy birthday (:

take flight

2006-09-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

"When will you be home?"
she asks as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying "We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh... I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

i just found out recently that it's a depressing song
but it holds so much truth about a mother's love.
or just love in general actually.
i think iloveyous are used too generously and too loosely
i suppose its just a social norm that we're used to
it's always nice to express your love and concern
but honestly in the genuine way
i think its used too casually
who are you, in your 18/20 years of life to speak of love?
just a casual thought (:

hun
1. i think its retarded how we're both capricorns, so technically should have similar character traits but we turn out so different. screw the stars
2. no chicken wing or fries or heart attack food for one day.
3. dirty green - reflective of all the soil coloured tops you wear
4. your eyes can talk
5. first three months in your class, when you were sleeping on the table
6. horse - need i say more?
7. would it have made a difference?

cynical

2006-09-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

being back in sn today
brought back sweet memories
the ease of being in place so familiar was overwhealming
it's like walking in the path that's been forgotten
covered by the weeds and fungi that appeared over night
but it's just, there.
hard to explain but it felt good.
eased the strained nerves a little (:
a little suprised by how at home i felt back there
despite being away for so long
i suppose ten years really makes a difference
the school's been repainted
but that memories is set so deep such that no matter where i turned
the images of blue white and pink paint still appeared (:

and it was so quiet, i managed to study
today felt like the only productive day in the entire week (:
tranquility, serenity, peace.

and the only thing that stays constant now
is the knowledge that i really really want to give up studying
oh well, i cant.
other than that all feelings, thoughts and things just keep changing
i suppose time never slows down
or halt even the slightest moment
and if we stop moving
we'll fall off, just like running on a treadmill
there's no stopping
you just have to keep going (:

over the rooftops a plane in the sky
beat of a bass drum cars passing me by
under a bridge dark then back into light

deafening silence

2006-09-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

i was just looking at friendster
and i can't help feel guilty
for my evilness in the past
unintentionally of course, but still evil
oh well, we all learn.

FELICIA JIANG
i swear we need to talk more
you make me happy ((:
really, really happy.
hahahas
curiosity killed the cat
but it's okay, i dont mind getting killed

and once again i miss the class ):
you never know dear, how much i miss you
please don't take my sunshine away!!
and jepenga, homie girls!
we need to hang outtt
HANG HANG HANG!
it's just one of those days when you miss everybody ):

If i lay here
If i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world